Imbolc

2-1-11 Welcome back the light

2-1-11 Welcome back the light

How is everyone? Are you surviving your cold dark winter nights and preparing for the return of the light? This is a special time called Imbolc, it is halfway between the winter and summer soltice, a time to welcome back the light...and that is exactly what I am doing.. So Thursday when I left off my driveway was plowed, and I was heading out to shovel a path and dig the car out so I could get to work the next day. It took me two sessions of 20 min each with my son's old boots on and plastic bags shoved inside but I did it! Snow filled my boots (didnt think of the duct tape till after) lol I then go out to test the drive way and turn my car facing down so I can go into the office the next day. I got halfway out and got stuck! Ugh! I called my son who refused to come over unless I paid him again so I hung up on him and I prayed.. Shortly after that a guy from CC called me and asked if I would sign a testimony for him regariding a court case some woman he had dated was taking him to court, well I knew her and how she had behaved at my house that night and I was more than willing to get the truth interjected so he said he'd come over and get my car unstuck....sadly though he got his car stuck also but he had AAA so a tow truck came and got us both out. In the meantime I listened to his troubles and gave his some guidance and encouragement and I also gave him a SpiritStone charged with energy to keep for court the next day, he really beamed and felt much better. Friday I went to the office so I could actually be warm for a bit and during the day they brought me 200 gals of oil (for $900!) ugh! and Shawn worked on the furnace. I stopped at the store got a few groceries and two red box movies and left my car at the bottom of the drive, I had tied plastic bags on my feet to get down there that morning and slipped much lugging down my computer so I left them off heading back up to the house. Shawn was gone so I called him, he said dont put the furnace above 55 and he would be back the next day to fix a few more things. So I had a bit warmer night and really was feeling happier. Sat morning I got up and made plans to go return my cable boxes and get the phone turned off, I really only need internet I decided. I also got the environmental survey filled out for the township and had to get that notarized. Shawn finished fixing the furnace and asked me for $100 when I asked how much the parts were ($30) I had thought he was doing the job for free but then I thought it's only right I give him something and that was less that if I had called a pro so I paid him. Times are hard but we gotta share with each other.  He's and old friend of my ex-husband and I wouldnt doupt if Gus wispered in his ear and sent him back in my life recently. Shawn lived with us before when I was married for an entire winter, he was out of work and slept in our living room, at first I was annoyed but then more than once he actually sat on my husband to keep him from hurting me when he was drunk, and when I had my nervous break down it was nice to not be alone all day, yup God sends angels to watch over you, don't fail to recognize them.... I ran my errands and then went to K-mart before heading home and ended up getting boots, I need them if I have to go out and shovel more, as more snow storms are predicted, and I also was thinking about Randy and how he had said he wanted to take me to Vermont with him when he went up for snowmobiling, I would need them for that if I went so I got a cheap pair. Driving home I got to thinking about him and how I bet he sure was enjoying all this snow, I said a prayer to keep him safe and I thought you know how can anyone love someone and NOT want them to go out and do what they love, what makes them happy, what makes them come alive. I thought about how much I value my freedom to come and go as I please now.... I got home and was happily approving all the members who were joing my new single and looking group and I saw that for now at least it is right that I am still single........and then I got a text....it was Randy asking if I could go to Vermont with him the next weekend! Yes I replied, thinking wow amazing how I left those meetups and events and this is what I get asked to do instead, and he called me at his lunch break and we made our plans.... I took a little nap then saturday afternoon and was woken up by my son, hey we came to sleep over in case it snows tonight.......what? No the heats off in your room, thats ok..but I have no cable TV...that's ok.....and no blankets....that's ok......yeah right they were staying there to help ME. Two days later they are still there, eating the food I bought for ONE so much for my canned cheese too.......now not only is my son back but I grew another too (his roomate) and now they are talking about moving with me to Keyport....I don't know how that's going to pan out but I am not going to worry about it... at least I have built in workers and there's more snow coming...... Sunday I went shopping and got a bathing suit to wear in the hot tub in Vermont, and I did my walking event too... met a very nice gal who not only is a massage therapist and Reiki master she lives in the town that I am moving to! Not just the town but the exact neighborhood I want to move to! I don't care what pepople say and accuse me of moving there for Randy I know in my heart I am meant to move to that town........and when I offered her a SpiritStone you know what she did? She took it, charged it with energy and she gave it back to me! And she reminded me to do self reiki, she could sense the hard times I have been going through, the drain on my energy, she said she had some great material on boudary setting if I wanted it. Oh yes yes I said that's been a hard one for me recently, I told her sometimes its so hard to shake some off i have to get em mad at me to break free..... Oh things are really looking up and as we sat there after our mall walk we planned for spring and outdoors and we commented on how it was staying light outside longer.....  Today I want you to welcome back the light in your lives, till your fields and prepare to plant the new seeds, do your spring cleaning in your home and in your life.....spring will come again and oh what a glorious time we will all have! Look around and see the signs of new life that has already started and thank whatever god you know for that, the cirlce of life is a miracle of re-birth not to be taken for granted..... With Love and in the Light,  Cassie  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imbolc Imbolc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eH7okeqtY3o

Outlaw Poet heading towards the light..

Timothy Johnson 
i held it all in.looking for grace.god knows i tried.as my soul slowly died.now looking back.i see your wounded wings.had never known love.you just couldnt fly.you may see.so little in yourself.know love is out there.but you have to try.i may not know.who you really are.for your world colored with pain.i forgive you good bye.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson 
my door is always open my friend.i know you are lonely on your mountain top.and your life so cold from so little sunshine.below people talk and say so little.so dont worry if they dont call your name.rest your weary soul and you'll be fine.give your love to the skys.rest your love by my side.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson 
if i become weak.will you give me strength.would you want to know.where my problems begin.would you stand with me.no matter what the length.if i give you my love.will it be safe in your heart..if i lose my way.will you help me see.when summers turn to winters.will your new year be with me.as our love grows stronger.in us will you still believe.if i give you my love.will it be safe in your heart....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson 
ive been knocking.standing in the cold.outside your door.i know youre home.ive got something to say.wont you let me come in.dont hide away.girl look at me.see in my eyes.open your mind.to someones who here.come on let love begin.wont you let me come in.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson remember us in the twilights glow.in a time we touched the skies.on the shores of our sea of love..dance with me in your dreams.lets hold each other one more time.it was only you i was thinking of..hide from me if you think you must.dances in the twilight will never end.for god gave us his kind of love..remember us in the twilights glow.in a time we touched the skies.on the shores of our sea of love...the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson
leaving nowhere to somewhere..with a song..wanna tag along?..taking reservations baby..all night long..heading towards the the light..no need of clothes..where lovers go..baby youd be the star..of our show....fast ride to a slow place..where love calls home..no stops along the way......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

its been awhile.since i heard a love song.thinking it was playing for me.seems like someone else.whose heart danced so in love.now its hard to believe.im beginning to love again.its been hard.telling my heart to hold on.knowing memories may be all thats left.seems like a movie.me an actor on her stage.then you and the very best.im beginning to love again.in her eyes i see more then a friend....the outlaw poet

Foreigner - Cold as Ice 2008

1-27-11 Losing Branches

1-27-11  Losing Branches As I write my blog today I am sitting here in a land coverd in ice and snow, the scenery is lovely but the cold is awful! It's a pretty scene but there are many dangers, not all will survive... I am so looking forward to spring...but first a bit more winter for us all... So Saturday I wake up and laze around my clean house and then decide to go grocery shopping. I was really enjoying picking out just what I wanted to eat for the coming week instead of trying to find what would be enough to keep my son fed the whole week and something would be left for me also! LOL I went up and down the isles enjoying myself, got one of those little one egg frying pans also and then I saw the canned cheese, now this is something a bit expensive (to me)  unless its on sale and also something that no matter how many cans I buy I venture to guess it's been over 10 years since I actually got to eat any of it. I am convinced my boys both had canned cheese radar and squirrled it away before the rest of the groceries were even un-packed. But anyway this day I happily put the can in my cart, with my reduced fat triscuts and looked forward to being able to have some one evening as a snack.....my phone rang and it was Jeremy calling to say he'd come do some work if i picked him. Hungy I bet he is I thought to myself and picked us each up a subway sandwich....guess what he put on it when I wasn't looking? Yup, at least 1/2 the can of cheese! Dang it! Well next can I get to eat... LOL I kept hoping Randy would text and let me know if he was coming up, but by 3 pm I hadn't heard from him. I was driving my son home and talking to him of his ex-girlfriend issues and I gave him some advice and then I said how even I act crazy, that I had broken up with and went back to Randy a dozen times since the summer. It was at that moment I realized that man must love me and I decied to text him to see if he was coming, I waited 2hrs and then headed out to see No Strings Attached, just before the movie started he texted that he'd be there at 7:30, good I said moive gets out at 7:15....however he arrived before me but let me tell you it's really nice to go out to see a romantic movie and come home on a cold winter night and find a warm man waiting for you. We had a nice time, no bringing up bad subjects, I told him of my house buying woes and he told me of his snowmobiling. He said he had driven over and checked out the new house and he said he can come over on bike and park in back. I have pretty much decided to put up with this, seeing him when I can. I figure I got more work to do as a single person and he got to let her stay a bit longer and I am still going to date whoever asks me....he did ask me to go to Vermont with him so I said yes but I can only afford my meals. He said great he'd let me know when... Sunday I had a walking event and had a lovely time. One of my long time friends said she was glad to get a chance to talk to me as other events I am surrounded by people, and one in particular is not nice and says all the seats are taken. I must say that info factored into a descion I made two days later....and that was to clear off some branches and make room for new growth. But anyway I was happy and hopefull and making plans for spring walking trips. Then I came home and the cold hard reality of winter was not just at my door it was in my house! I had run out of Oil! I knew it was low when Jeremy checked it and had planned to order some monday. I called and they wanted a ton of cash to come out for emergency delivery so I went to Walmart and bought 2 space heaters for a third the cost of the emergency delivery. Monday was work and dealing with meetup stuff and calling for fuel, seems they couldn't deliver till thursday! That is today but my driveway is covered in 3 feet of snow! I called and they said I'd have to wait another week when I asked them to come out after noon....once the snow plow came. I argued I was 1/4 mile from the place and they were firm till I started crying on the phone! I just don't think I could go another week w/o heat and I have no cable TV to boot! I really am going through some long dark nights over here....but I am keeping the faith and knowing that spring will come, it always does come... Tuesday and Wednesday were also spent on some social network drama, it got so bad that I just walked away from it all. It's amazing how people will start getting controlling and bossy and fearful and all sorts of other things when money is involved and finances are tight. Anyone can be a friend in good times but its how they treat you in the bad ones that really counts, even the best of people get hard to deal with when thier fear button is pushed. The important thing is to get away from that when it happens and don't get dragged into it. I wish I could say I walked away soon enough on this one but I didn't, words were said, I still have that need to defend myself and its something else I need to look at. But that's the good thing about hard times, it shows us what we need to work on. So today I sit here a winter wonderland coverd in snow, freezing my behind off and only have internet to entertain me. At least I can do my job from home, work on the new meetup groups I bought and are going to build from scratch with fresh new faces and no old dead wood, and I have netflix.....thank god for netfix! Curse you suburban propane! LOL The plow just came I must go out and shovel the car out..... Today I want you to take a look at the dead branches in your life, or the ones barely alive, the ones that don't produce any fruit for shade and see if you can stir up a nice storm and shake them off.... Take your cue from nature and know that in order for new life to grow old dead life must be removed, just as ice clings to trees and breaks off the dead branches so must you do the same in your life..........this cold dark night of my life will be ending with the spring thaw and I will be transplanted in a new place. I am getting rid of my dead branches...what about you??? With Love and in the Light,  Cassie Foreigner - Cold as Ice http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQaCy2lgb0I PS: I forgot to add my gratitudes in this blog and I have several I am greatful for my son and his roomate who came over and shoved me out on wednesday, the $20 each and the lunch I bought them was worth it I am greatful that last week I heard from Shawn my ex-husbands best friend because he needed help posting an event because he came to help work on my furnace I am greatful for my meetup member who is getting taken to court by his crazy ex and called me late last night because he needs me to sign a testimony for him, he is coming over tonight for that signature and bringing rock salt to get my car unstuck from the driveway I am greatful that my house did not close the end of Jan as predicted because there's just way too much snow on the ground and my pack rat would be too hard to get out.

Outlaw Poet still yearning for his love like I am....

Timothy Johnsonin your dreams feel my love.it is living in your heart.my lady it is where love starts.for we will never part.all you have to do is live your dream.its easy if you try..in your dreams feel my touch.you are all that i can see.we can hold hands by the beach.the sea is there for you and me.all you have to do is dream of us.its easy if you try......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnsonrest your head..gently on my chest..feel my heart beat..feel two hearts beating as one..feel our bodies..entertwined in warmth..feel our rhthem of love..two together becoming one..celebrate our love..slow dancing in our souls..hearts kissing with passion..feel soulmates who forever are one.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson sweet lady in your dreams..fly and be free..just make extra room..in your heart..for my love my soul my dreams..will be flying with you..and you gotta hold them..for you know its your love..that gives them life.......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson a moment in time with you..is all i ask of forever..call it my dreams my wish my fantasy..for of you they are all true..others may have taken you for granted..the joy of simply being with you..i wouldnt care about a tomorrow..if today was a moment in time with you....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson my beautiful lady..dont worry about a thing..just close your eyes..and lean on me..rest your weary soul..take all the time you need..leave your troubles at my door..let me be strong..find your serenity and peace..my beautiful lady..ill always be there for you..my beautiful lady..loving you is all i want to do........the outlaw poet.....come to me

Timothy Johnson meet me where the hearts cross.down past the house of dreams.there will be white doves up in the air.guitars playing love songs everywhere.meet me in forever.its where we'll be together.in love forever.meet me where the rivers dance.dancing partners are shooting stars.its where the world seems to end.on the path where love begins.meet me in forever.its where we'll be together.in love forever...the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson as you walk in peace.amongst the winter trees.breath in the air.as our hearts share.the time of our life.we cant let pass by.this is our season.love is the reason.as you look at me.we are as leaves on trees.never whole apart.together one beating heart.everyday ill say i do.im so in love with you....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnsonshould tomorrow come without me.go on living like youve never lived before.kiss the sunshine in the morning.follow the light through every open door.marvel at the sparrows as they fly.through blue skys of endless dreams.listen to the songs they are singing.swim gently in the water of lifes streams.should tomorrow come without me.feel the wind and know im free...the outlaw poet

now i am worried about snowmobile accidents..........

the outlaw poet....seems to be losing his fears..

Timothy Johnson
witches biker chicks and new age hippies..have all settled in..no clothes no worries in sight..singing along hand in hand..dancing with the charlie daniels band..being as free as they can..feeling the pleasures of an outlaw band..dont stop dancing..lets dance......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

walk with me.leave those troubles behind.there is a river.flowing in the mountains.where you can swim free.ill take you there.walk with me..yesterdays dont need to come.i know of a place.where the moon will dance.for just you and i.ill take you there.walk with me.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson
IF i open my eyes.will i see.what my heart already knows.that my path to love.leads to you.its where i should go IF i talked to my soul.would i feel.warm breezes in the snow.would just your touch.be the key.to let our love grow IF i gave my all.to loving you.my dreams would be alive.heart to heart.we'd do loves dance.for the rest of our life.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnsona gentle breeze was blowing.through some old georgia pines.one could almost hear the whispers.from a rainbow across the sky.sunshine was holding everyones hand.playing as two deer pranced by.the stage was set for natures band.when my heart felt my outlaw princess.say poet will you dance with me.will you dance with me.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson i saw her in the shade beneath a tree.she looked at me and came running.her hair blowing free like the wind.whispering that i was her only one.she said we'd ride away together.or i wasnt going to ride at all.saying nothing could replace my heart.and my name was all she'd call.my heart was born that day.she took away my fears.she wanted the outlaw me.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

dont you feel my heart..tugging on you at night..ive told it to stay away..i dont know what else to say..so with you it wont stay..talk to my heart..how do you tell a heart..its not loved anymore......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson a thin tank top.getting tanned in the breeze.muscle engines roaring.their vibrations through the seat.yes the sky is clear.and the roads are free.my lady its time to ride.making love all night.an outlaw princess.being caressed by the sea.holding on smiling.no better place to be.she whispers softly.in us i believe.my lady its time to ride.making love all night....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

i see her standing in the moonlight.her eyes sparkling like the stars.her heart glows so warm and gentle.and all my world feels so right.i dance with her in my dreams.a slow dance to a love song.with music knowing no space or time.more beauty then ive seen.i see her with my heart.its where love starts....the outlaw poet....ps now if she only sees me

The Outlaw Poets been busy....

Timothy Johnson

she takes small steps.in the rain.its where i saw her.the sun shining through.as if her skys were blue.tears washed away in the rain.even angels have their pain...she parts the hair clinging.to her face.so she could see me.her eyes said it all.only love i now recall.tears washed away in the rain.even angels have their pain.......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

through the years.we'll start each morning.looking for the sunshine.even on those rainy days..down the road.we'll always kiss good night.sharing new memories.that only we can make..with it all.when our winter comes.we'll be together.forever in loves embrace......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

meet me where the hearts cross.down past the house of dreams.there will be white doves up in the air.guitars playing love songs everywhere.its where we'll be together.in love forever. meet me where the moons in love.where the sun shines on everyone.its a magic land for you and me.just follow your dreams and believe.meet me in forever.its where we'll be together.in love forever....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

if my world gos dark..would you shine your light..when i stumble and fall..will you help make things right..as we grow old..will we be together at night..if i give you my love..will it be safe in your heart.......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

call me a dreamer.for i will understand.just believe a path of peace.made of love and happiness.can begin in the heart.of any woman or man..call me a dreamer.im glad you know of me.your long hair bearded man.holding on to hope.looking for lifes sunshine.a place to be..call me a dreamer.for i will understand....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

my beautiful lady.dont worry about a thing.just close your eyes.and lean on me.rest your weary soul.take all the time you need.leave your troubles at my door.let me be strong.find your serenity and peace.my beautiful lady.ill always be there for you.my beautiful lady.loving you is all i want to do.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

no matter where i go..be it the yesterdays in my mind..or the sunrises of new mornings..my heart will always dance..hearing love songs from your band..for ive seen in your eyes..the face of love..the face of love is you.......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

OUTLAW LOVE..sweet is a song..when the song is love..of a love that lives..in a place with no space..not knowing time..gentle is a breeze..that lifts angels wings..on a path of light..to a land of no sorrow..no chains that bind.......the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

when your heart talks.you need to listen.for its these unspoken words.these unsung songs.where love belongs.look with your heart.not your eyes.for only then can you see.beauty thats real.looks you can feel..listen to your heart if you want to dance.giving love a chance.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

on a desert backroad.feeling a warm gentle gentle breeze.there was no need for clothes.yes your long hair flowing.your tanned body sensually breathing.you was all i wanted to see.it was scooter in june.some old waylon and willie tunes.in the shadow of the moon.we made love.....the outlaw poet.........OUTLAW PRINCESS WHOEVER YOU ARE LETS RIDE

Timothy Johnson

the morning sun.kissed the day hello.as a little white dove.flew across my sky.a man of peace above.looked down and smiled.the stars above.danced in the night.as a shooting star.guided those so wise.as mother mary.looked into his eyes.yes a dove of peace.flew across our skies.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

country chicks biker babes and a few old hippies..are on lifes front row..topless swaying with the wind..dancing barefoot in the sand..under the music of the red headed man..for tonight they understand..the pleasures in life of an outlaw band..lets all dance....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

you had to be strong.crying silent tears.to make it through your nights.your weary soul still stood.tall against your fears.when you wanted to hide.you faved the world alone.with only your dreams.showing you a light.you just lean on me.for you are my angel.its all going to be all right.....the outlaw poet

and somehow Ray my True Path Reader found his way to My Outlaw poet....odd....guess his poetry is a part of my path.....

Bizarre Inc.- I'm Gonna Get You (Released '92, Billboard #47)

1-22-11 Transformations

1-22-11    Transformations

For the first time in my 50 years of life I am living alone, all alone in this big two family, 236 yr old, sitting on 5 acres of land, creepy noise, ghost occupied house. I shake my shoulders and shudder even as I type this. But so far so good.... It's just odd for me because I have always lived with either my parents, in a dorm, with various roommates across the country, my husband, my kids, assorted tenants, at times up to about a dozen people at once!...never never ever alone! I don't know that I like it either, sure I like the fact that the place stays clean, the fridge full of what I put in it till I eat it, and i do have some peace and quiet too, but honestly I like having people around me, not necessarily interacting with them all the time but just being there. I dunno though I am starting to not hate it too much...

So anyway as I left off last time my son was missing and I and the police were scouring all about trying to find him. I finally went up to bed to rest some in case they called me in the night. I got about ready to fall asleep and heard noises.....I went down to the kitchen, club in hand and was greeted by my son......it was him banging the cabinets getting a bowl of cereal! I nagged him big time and called the police officer to report him found , he spoke to him also and nagged him  as well and told him he found a warrant on him but he would not come take him in but he better take care of it. Once that died down Jeremy tells me he's found a place to move, some guy he met at Wawa (I think an old customer) LOL He's 40 and he's on housing for a year and willing to let Jeremy move in for only the cost of paying the cable bill. I was worried about it but that night my dreams seemed to comfort me, and I recalled what Mary said when she came to sit with me a bit when he was missing. We were discussing wheather I should have her try and get him housing or if I should take him with me, she said I know you want him to go with you but  wouldnt you rather have him grow up to be a man instead and I said yes. I think that's probably about the same moment that he decided to move in with that guy. And while some of my friends call it creepy, I understand his bonding with someone older. I have always had at least one female friend 20 or more years older to take the place of the mother relationship I never had much of, he is probably looking for a father figure. Mary did a scan and she also decided she was at peace about this.

So tuesday I texted from work that I would help him move when I got home as I wanted to meet his roomate and see his place and he said yeah sure, but by the time I got home he was gone. Not all his stuff just the basics but yeah he was gone. :(  I recalled my reading from Ray @truepathreadings.com and he said I was about to experience a loss but it was going to be ok and part of my transition and I had thought it was my tennant! Nope they had meant bigger... but then I was thinking yes yes this is good for him to try his wings, and I recalled that I had done the same and came back to the nest a few times before it stuck.... Now who the heck is going to help me when it snows? Or finishing out cleaning the crap out of this place? Or when I move? Dear Lord send me help I prayed...

Wednesday I worked from home and so needed human interaction that I went to see my Shaman for full moon ceremony. I have gone there for years but generally not so much any more as her group has grown so much that the cerimonies last so late waiting for all to get a turn and I get tired. Still it seemed fittng for me to go one last time as so much of my growth has come from this community www.marahlight.com and a special treat of the evening was an Anyi ceremony!   Its where we each go up and speak to her and get some guidance and love for our coming year. She told me she felt great things for this move I am about to make and that I was following my heart as spirit was calling me there, and that I would build my own spiritial community there and do much energy work for the area and the people there. She said she sees a great light coming to me soon to help me with this work and this could possibly be the partner I have yeared for for so long, she said be prepared however to accept a relationship that is different than what I always thought that I wanted.

Thursday night was game night and AnnMarie and I had a good turn out, over 30 people came and it was great! I talked to a couple gals out of work and gave then some encouragement and some SpiritStones and there was one new guy who came that I thought was pretty cute and we talked alot but then he wanted to know about another woman he saw there so I ended up doing a little of my matchmaking work and getting them together, they have a date coming up! Maybe they will end up married and I will finally reach my quota! Haha I was glad to note that when he wasn't interested in me it didnt hurt at all like in the past. I am truly evolving and not hurting over those who do not choose me and being paitient for God to bring me the one who will. Friday was my work from home day and it snowed the night before too, I was worried about getting shoveled out since I had to go get Deb at the airport but I texted Jeremy to come shovel me out and he came with two friends and did it! One was his new roomate, he looked pretty brain fired but he was nice enough, I said I guess he likes living with you so he can smoke in the house and he's like oh no no we don't smoke that stuff--Ugh But Jeremy took some more of his things and he also took some food and paper towels but that's ok and I told him I still want to see his new home and he can come over and bring me his laundry anytime I will do it. I have always liked to do laundry especially those I love, as I fold the clothes I think of them and put love into the freshly washed things for them to wear.

So later that night I went to pick Deb up from the airport, her company had sent her to Cancun for the week and she was so greatful to have me pick her up--in todays world that seems to be one of the standards that sets an aquaintence apart from a friend, picking them up at the airport,  and she has become a real friend. I talked about Jeremys move and she said she sensed he didnt want me to see where he's living that its a crappy place, I suspect she's right and have decided to not ask again to see it, he knows I'd worry and he does do what he can to protect me from worry, both of my sons do that for me, guess they do apreciate how hard a life its been for me to raise them alone and I did teach them to care about others feelings and not be selfish. I took Deb home and went in for a light dinner and she gave me my present she got me-- 7 Jade frogs! It was odd too because I told her just wednesday night at ceremony the thought of frogs came in my mind and how my mother thought they were evil and unclean (fundamental religious BS) and my thoughts were on the fact that they were god's creation how could they be evil. It must have been one of my guides wispering to me (one had also wispered your home's big enough when I looked with slight envy on my shamans large meeting space and worried about if my new basement was big enough),anyway for some reason I am meant to have these frogs.

One other thing that happend yesterday was Melissa my reiki friend was having a bad day so I told her to call and we could exchange some energy over the phone. I talked to her about fees and getting her talent out there and she talked to me about some messages she got about Randy, she told me how upset she was when she read I am moving a block from him but her guides told her it was OK, she told me of the messages they gave her,  said she had a vision also of me running into them together somewhere but I would be ok and she says that woman abuses him awful and keeps him in fear to leave her or make her go. This was a confirmation of a message I had gotten about him earlier in the week, the following satus message: Ladies....while you scream at your man, there's a woman out there wishing she could whisper sweet nothings in his ear. While you humiliate, offend, and insult him, there's a woman flirting with him and reminding him how handsome he is. While you hurt him, there's a woman wishing she could make him feel like a real man. While you make him cringe, there's a woman stealing smiles from him. So I sent him an e-mail saying I wanted to see him........he said he'd let me know soon, I said OK, he said this weekend would be nice...I said let me know early or I will make plans with firends. I am still praying for God to bring me a husband a lover a partner and a best friend to share my life my home my bed, but for now this is what I have, Randy is the one who shows up (once in awhile), and this I will be greatful for and I know that right now its not about me being loved , its my job to love me, its about me loving him and sending good energy to his spirit so he someday hopefully he will heal his broken places that keep him in the bondage of fear and mistreatment and love himself enough to choose better....

So today I want you all to think about the major transformational changes that you want to make in your life this year, that is what the frog symbolizes.  At Anyi ceremony the Shaman asked of us what one big thing we wanted to change most this year, mine was accepting what is and not wanting what I don't yet have, trusting God to give me what I need when I need it. That is what I am going to work on..........what about YOU? What would you like to transform in your life??

With Love and in the Light, Cassie

This is the song track in my head all this week....I really don't make this up, my guides have a sense of humor    LOL

Bizarre Inc.- I'm Gonna Get You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a3HkTX-0xHY

Paula Cole-Where have all the cowboys gone

1-17-11 Really Could Use a Cowboy Right Now

1-17-11  Really Could Use a Cowboy Right Now

So Friday night I headed down to The Starland Ballroom to pass out the tickets to the 70's concert that AnnMarie had contacted the place in our behalf and they sent us 500 tickets! We were in shock but it sure helped us grow the new Social-Cirlces group. I was tired though, and its a long drive and I was so not into it but I had made the commitment. 287 was backed up and Deb called and she said yes I wondered why you wanted to move down the shore and face that everyday and I said I am called to. I did end up tossing out about 3 SpiritStones as I drove the route, I had been told before to do this, to relive the tension of that area and bring good energy to it. I can't tell you how many people pass that way on their daily commutes and how many accidents happen there, the energy must be very negative with all those angry commuters backed up day after day leaving that imprint. Yes this is an area who can use some of the good energy, I will "seed" the area each time I pass there....

Saturday Jeremy and I went to see Deb and drop off my carpet shampooer for her, she had bought us lunch and out did herself. I keep trying to give to her to pay back her generosity to me and she gives more each time! I am going to go pick her up at the airport on Friday so that's one way I can give back. Its very important to give back when you receive from others, the flow of energy is important for all. I was glad to be there to visit with her too as she just got let down by yet another man. In the evening I was doing a dance event with my friend Tina for her favorite band, she asked for my help and I said I would do it and see how many bodies I could get them and maybe in the future get a cut for bringing people in and she said sure. It was a great band and I did get them 50 people and we all danced and mingled and had fun, I got to see some people who I hadn't seen in a long time who had come to my BBQs years ago. I also talked to one of the guys whom I had met before who kindly bought me a drink and we discussed dating in general, he gave me some insights to add to my fourm on CC Advice from the field Men for Women which I think can help all of us single women. It's tough out here in single land, 4 women to every man, we need every edge we can get....

Sunday was my Improv class that is taught by my good friend Anthony. I was pleased with how many people came and the participation too! Some of the shy one's really got up there and acted and let stuff out it was great! Anthony reads and follows spiritual principals such as I do and really likes to use Improv to help relationships as well. I am very excited about the work he is going to be doing to help the members of CassiesCalendar and the meetups AnnMarie shares with me. On the way home I had an organizers dinner meeting with Debbie and AnnMarie. We discussed how we would share the groups and the events and work together. We discussed problem members and how they take away from the spirit of what we wish to create and resulting of that I did end up having to remove an old friend and past business partner today. I have lost a great deal of money due to him and he has remained belligerent and controlling , the business website had come up for re-newal and I had to let it expire because he is holding onto all the product  I paid for and couldn't fulfill orders. Oddly enough it expired on 1-11-11. So onto new things, as i said I am going to soar this year and not let any turkeys hold me back! If anyone's meant to soar with me they will get their wings and catch up.....

So as you can see a very busy weekend for me, I am exhausted! Oddly enough I had gotten a quick reading from my tarot guy online Sunday morning, he told me I am going to only read you for a month instead of the usual 6 as I know you won't wait. He predicted a loss in a  week (and I did find out my tenant is moving next weekend w/o giving notice), he also predicted a move for me in 3-4 weeks (I found out that they are going to take my offer on the house down the street but NOT let me rent, I must wait till closing). He also brought up Randy and pulled the tower, said he was terrified of shaking up his home situation, wow tell me something I don't know I thought. Then I started thinking about him again, I knew he was in Vermont, had hoped when he was away from them and alone he'd call or text or send a picture at least but he did not. I worried about his safety on the trails but I didn't text to check on him, he told me to not contact him and I am going to respect that. I kept reading The Outlaw Poet and finally decided to stop thinking those poems related to him, even if they did they all talk of love in the future, I need a man NOW, I am going to give up reading those, who wants an Outlaw anyway? I need a cowboy.......

Currently I sit here also wondering where my son is, he didn't come home last night and is not answering texts or calls all day. I called all his friends and the hospital and finally filed a missing persons report. They checked the jails so he's not arrested, not in NJ anyway. I got a feeling he's gone out partying or something with that ex-GF who stole my car.......don't seem to matter what I do with him he falls back into depression and thinking his life is worthless. Times like this always get me to crying and feeling bad for him growing up with out a father....when Gus went to jail he was 6 he begged me every day to get him a new father....Big Brothers program never had anybody for him.....the only serious boyfriend I ever had was Randy and he was thrilled to death over him--told his friends my mom picked out a guy for me! But despite the fact that he promised on several occasions Randy never did take him snowmobiling, and only once did he take him quadding.....he had a guy friend with kids at the time and went with them all the time, too dang selfish to see how badly my son needed a pal..........yes where have all the cowboys gone?

Tonight I am tired, weary to the bone, sick and tired of working so hard, waiting for love, praying for people to behave and have respect for one another, for women to be honored and not abused, for sons to have fathers , for daughters to have daddies, for lazy people to get off their selfish self-entitled asses and get to work instead of laying around in self indulgence with their hands out......yes it's not a good night for me and I just can't think about it anymore, I'll think about it tomorrow...........

Say a prayer of two for me, and for us all........

With Love and in the Light, Cassie

Paula Cole-Where have all the cowboys gone 
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPR108kwNo4

outlaw poet.....heart of darkness? or just missing the summer?..

Timothy Johnson

music is what love feels like.listen to love songs in the wind.if you feel whispers of forever.while your heart starts to dance.your music and love will never end.lady all your days through.i will sing my songs for you....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

with a bag full of the devils tricks.and words sweet but well rehearsed.a female charlie manson held her court.shreading my heart and passing sentense.now after her evil ways have adjourned.i escaped bleeding but free.yes im still me.for in love i believe......the outlaw poet

wow-- his heart it turning to the dark side again.... then again we all have one.... each moment is a choice..

Timothy Johnson

for what i wouldnt give.for the seashore and the beach.and you and me playing in the sand.for a moment in time we'd live.making love with the rhythm of the waves.you would have all i have to give.a moment in time with you.is all i ask of forever.....the outlaw poet

I don't want stolen moments i want forever.....only forever this time or never..........

Timothy Johnson she takes small steps.in the rain.its where i saw her.the sun shining through.as if her skys were blue.tears washed away in the rain.even angels have their pain...she parts the hair clinging.to her face.so she could see me.her eyes said it all.only love i now recall.tears washed away in the rain.even angels have their pain.......the outlaw poet

I am so tired , i can't take any more pain ....it's time for me to stop walking in through rain......

Timothy Johnson

through the years.we'll start each morning.looking for the sunshine.even on those rainy days..down the road.we'll always kiss good night.sharing new memories.that only we can make..with it all.when our winter comes.we'll be together.forever in loves embrace......the outlaw poet

 ya ya ya but always in the future, never TODAY.....who wants to wait for an outlaw anyway....where have all the cowboys gone???

I can't resist the Outlaw Poet...

Timothy Johnson

feel the colors of the rainbow..painting pictures in your heart..feel my soul touching yours..wrapping you in love...feel the wind and sunshine..dancing together in your sky..feel my touch on your skin..caressing you with love...the outlaw poet

 

Timothy Johnson

someday you may feel me..as a single drop of rain..or hear me whispering..from a distant railroad train..and when our stories told..it will be of loves refrain..there will never come a time..when i wont call your name...the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

i would like to feel.the enchantment of a warm summer rain.i would like to see.the magic of an eagle soaring high.i would like to smell the romance of a field of daisys..i would like to touch.the heart of love calling my name.i would like to love you...outlaw poet

 

Timothy Johnson

walk with me..leave those troubles behind..there is a river..flowing in the mountains..where you can swim free..ill take you there..walk with me.....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

come join me..lets find us a place..where the world..dosnt know were there..ill hold you..where are eyes only see..the essense of love..which is floating everywhere..just kiss me..in a place only you know..where only soulmates..breath in the air..ill love you..past forever and a day..come join me..let the wind caress....outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

miss soulmate.put on your riding boots.leather pants and a tank top.iron horses are biting at their bits.spread your wings and lets ride.its our time for fun.time to run with the sun.babe you are pure honey.riding when the run is done....the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

i dont like sad songs.feelings of sadness or.everyone crying along songs.i want to find a band.rocking along with happiness.so everyone can sing along.lovers walking hand in hand.in step with dreams.a woman and her man.i only want happy songs.singing of lifes beauty.where everyone sings along...the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

its late at night..and somewhere out there..my lady she lays sleeping..i think of her..while my mind wonders..what she may be feeling..in her dreams..am i there with her..as she reaches to kiss me..when she turns..will she whisper softly..dont ever leave..does she love me.......the outlaw poet

1-14-11 Time to Order New Seeds!

1-14-11  Time to Order New Seeds! This week my seed catalogs came in the mail, and for the first time in 4 years I didn't toss them!, finally I am going to be in a new home! And while I won't have a fraction of the land I have here to plant on (5 acres down to 0.5) LOL I will have some space and for this I am excited...I also noted that my move near the shore has put me in a new earlier planting zone! woohoo So Monday I go to work and had a our weekly staff meeting, I brought up a new project I am doing for the group and that made everyone happy, I tend to do that think up and start doing my own projects. I also met with my boss and got my yearly review, that went well but I didn't get the promotion to the new job opening I had hoped I would get, when I asked he said oh wow didn't even think of that....he said that now its posted they have to consider others but he would mention it to his boss..... I am keeping  positive about this since several of my readings have indicated more money and moving up in my job. I need to earn more and I deserve to earn more because I work hard and take on more responsibilities. We must remember that what we ask of the universe to give to us also requires our work as well, there are no magic wands to be waved and there is no honor in hand outs. I also got word from Mike that we can put in the formal offer for the new house I had found, the one close to Randy that he can't come see me unless he comes clean to the family he lives with--- I said go ahead draw the paperwork up and since the next day was 1-11-11 I was really excited about it knowing the energy of the day would propel it forward!  Shortly after that I was on facebook and realized that The Outlaw Poet was back! I got all excited and took it as a sign that I was meant to be with Randy (as you recall all summer long his postings mysteriously reflected what was going on between us)....however let this be a lesson to you that all things you think are signs are not signs necessarily...a good rule of thumb is if your too attached to an outcome you often create signs for yourself so beware! Anyway.. I waited till his work break time and I texted him saying tomorrow is 1-11-11 make a wish and its likely to come true! I am putting the offer in on the house tomorrow..........his reply cut deep in my soul: we are not supposed to be talking. I sat there staring at it not knowing if he was being a smart ass or he was really trying to get rid of me. As I said our interaction on sat went round and round , he talks from both sides of his mouth, one foot in one foot out with me--i understand it though its a dance I know well, the dance of the wounded soul. So I sat there a bit and I finally said: Someday you are going to regret tossing aside the one person who cared about you the most (he knows its true he's said so many times) His reply to that: We're not talking- I don't hear you La La La  I was in shock, I hurt , I was mad! It lasted till I feel asleep that night and it was done. He's wounded me so many times now I am numb to him. Mary said that he just can't quit punishing you for leaving him, he won't let it go-----let him go. I am. Tuesday I did what had to be done, signed and faxed papers, sent in a deposit check all that stuff to make the bid on the house down the block , I put it as my wallpaper on my computer (3rd house hope 3's a charm) LOL and I felt peace and was glad that I had remembered to go back there on sat after Mike and I left and toss some spiritstones there. I put three, two amethyst and one rose quartz to signify a partner and love to come together there. Humm, I wonder if I should have asked to buy the king bed that was in the master bedroom now.... That night I began reading a new book I got on clearance by Sylvia Brown called Mystical Traveler...its amazing how I see myself in this book! I have given my will over to god, i have spent a life of healing and service, I have been a loner quite a bit as well. I am to do great works still I think to bring people together and to raise the consciousness of the planet....we have much coming our way more need to evolve higher! I spent the remainder of the week throwing myself feverishly into my social networking events, and I am working with several people now. Debbie and I are working on the Superbowl party, AnnMarie and I on a dinner and dance event, Anthony and I on his Improv workshops. He even let me make a graphic for him and put an affiliate of CC on it. He thanked me for believing in him which was not necessary, I do see the value of Improv on many levels and I think he and I can work together to do great things with this. I am only sorry that my old guy friend is not a part of this but I can't allow him to be until he does the right thing, its not in the cards though... but you never know who may choose a better fate and when.... Oh well at any rate for now no more wishing and dreaming and hoping its time for work...springs right around the corner! Today I want you to think about what you want to bloom in your life this spring and summer and I want you to ask yourself some hard honest questions about what you are doing to make those things come to you. I want you to stop holding on to dreams that aren't coming true, people who aren't enhancing your path, soon the time for planting will come so get ready to do that work! Throw out last year's seeds and look through the catalogs to see what new you can order to grow in your gardens this year....not to worry, if you have any perennials with good healthy roots they will sprout again..... With Love and in the Light, Cassie Winds of Change http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFh2vpGeoIk%20 "You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger." The Buddha

Outlaw poet has returned!

Timothy Johnson 
RAINDROPS from the floor of heaven..felt gentle on my skin..yes Jesus let it fall..just to give me hope again SHADOWS dancing in the sunshine..handed me a light..to walk a path of peace..with love flying up high......a path is simply a road with no direction..if there are no smiles to exchange..no friends to dance with..no beauty to see..my friends take my hand..on a path of love happiness and peace..come dance with me....
i want to ride.with you in mountains high.and swim in seas.near castles in the night.yes and we will always believe.in our love that is free.fly with me and lets ride free.....the outlaw poet


mornings are not for yesterday..its time to walk a new..no matter the season of your life..even winters can have a summer sky..all you have to do is try..with the morning tide..we can ride...i have seen those with broken wings.still trying to fly.so many with no shoes.trying so hard to walk.they cried....i have seen broken roads littered with dreams.just wanting to be alive.i have felt my heart.talk of love.saying if you give up you die....the outlaw poet








1-11-11:

Timothy Johnson love is what is left when all else is stripped away..all ego..all fear..all desire..all possessiveness..all jealousy..all need to control...at the end of it all..there is love..with its gentle roaring voice..its undeniably...if i could paint a rainbow up in the sky..you'd see colors of the world floating everywhere..red for the hearts that know love..gold for those who give more then they receive..blue for the lonely wanting to believe..if i could paint a rainbow in the sky...the outlaw poet

 

ahh today my heart it red and gold.....and a little blue too

 

Timothy Johnson I KNOW YOU like i know the morning kissed awake by sunshine up in the mountains high I KNOW YOU like i know the freedom of watching eagles soar with magic in the sky I KNOW YOU like i know how dreams walk a path of love in my sleep at night...the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

i wish i could whisper like the wind..or fall down gently like a snowflake..i wish i could soar like an eagle..or float with the geese on a lake..i wish you were in my arms at sunrise..or making love after the moon is late...i would change the color of the sky..patch your wings so you could fly..this ol dog would learn new tricks..sing some songs to make you rich..you are worth all that to me..for you to be happy..id even set you free..thats the way love should be.....the outlaw poet

1-9-11 Winter's Change

1-9-11   Winter's Change

New Beginnings, that was my card of the day this morning when I got up. And based on yesterday that's a fitting card indeed.

Yesterday I got up and drove down and looked at the house that's very close to Randy and I really liked it. It had all the things I need, the price is right and the only negatives are the old radiators and the window AC units I hoped to get away from, and the one small bathroom. But I lived without central air and with radiators my whole life so far, and I think we could add a half bath in the basement easily enough and there's an office next to the master bedroom that if I got really better off financially I could easily make into a master bathroom, I could even install ducts and central air and forced air heating later on too. But for now it's good enough and there are two large size bedrooms that I can get roommates in and help me pay down this credit card dept. The basement was even big and nice enough for me to use for the spiritual workshops I want to do and a place for Jeremy to live in the case that he ends up having to come down there with me. Yep I liked it but I knew Randy was going to hate it because he wouldn't be able to come over. I was conflicted on that point but mostly glad, I dont want him sneaking around to see me, either I am worth the risk or stay away if felt.

Just for safe measure though Mike and I went and looked at the second house we had an appointment for, the only other one left that I could possibly get into in time. I was hideous and it cost more and when I said to him I didn't want it I saw the look of relief on the woman's face who was there with her two small kids, possibly a single mom....boy did I recall those days and thanked God again for allowing me to have this lovely home all these years to raise my sons in. I also thought about the woman who lives with Randy and her sons there..... Anyway after leaving the house I told him to go ahead and put in the bid on the other house, we weren't going to get any better than that. I also gave him some tickets to the concert that we had been given for my group and he was very happy about that. I then headed towards Sears to get my oil changed, I had sent Randy an e-mail letting him know I was coming, telling him if he had time for lunch we could meet but I then had to head back as I wanted to go to a meetup last night. He hadn't seen the e-mail and the day didn't end up that way.....

I took my car in and texted him to keep an eye on it so they don't call me up and try to talk me into something I don't need and he said OK. I then shopped the clearance racks at Sears while I waited and found an outfit for the upcoming event in NYC and was happy to find something. My car got done and I went to pay for it and Randy drove it out and asked me to go wait for him to have lunch. He came and it was nice to see him and he talked me into going to a movie and waiting for him to get out of work. He said I am starting to think you are stalking me, coming down here house shopping, doing events near me, bringing your car to my job. I said I will stay away if you want and he said nooooooooo I like it.  I then told him about the house and he had totally mixed feelings on that one, he liked I was so close he could walk over but not that he can't come there as everyone would see his truck. I again told him if he was just honest with her, told her they can stay but he was dating me then all could be happy but he said she would leave.. he said he feared she'd leave an he'd lose his kids. So that's when I decided to tell him I was going to go out on a date with someone else. I could tell by his face he didnt like that but I thought we must be honest with one another and I intend to keep looking for a husband. In retrospect I see that I only told him to try and push him into what I wanted for us, I ended up dumping that guy today anyway, so I won't tell him anymore about dating others it only causes necessary hurt, he doesn't deserve that.

After the movie I waited for him and we hung out together and talked and spent some time together but it was cold out, I said I can't believe I am still doing this in the winter time! I said again how he wont be able to come to my house if I get this latest one and he said he could park at his moms and I could come get him, but I won't want to go out in the cold to drive you back.....no I am glad the universe is picking this house for me, it will protect me from being weak and settling for less than I truly want in my life, it will protect me from this love that is not healthy for me. It was growing colder and I said I need to head home but he wanted to go get some shrimp so we ended up going to eat at a diner and talking for two more hours..... He told me more of how things are at home and how he can't even buy groceries because they eat all of them, how the 20 yr old only works 1 day a week, how cold "the wife" is to him etc, I see the pain of his face and it almost looks like tears in his eyes......BUT.... he does not want to leave what he's got, he said I did not choose this it just happened to me its what I have to live with. He says he knows the family he has is not real but he has the illusion of having a family and he likes that, he likes to be able to say I am going home to work on my sons car...etc. He also said when he and I were together I was always sad, always crying never happy with the way things were with us, always wanting more. I guess I need to reflect on that deeper as I do know he's right. I was sad because he spent so much time going off to play with the guys, going to Vermont and not wanting to take me with him, or when he did take me I'd get bored waiting for him to come back in from sledding, or I'd get sad because he complained about my snoring and wanted me to sleep in my own room alone.

Yep I suppose today is a new beginning of me accepting that Randy is nothing more than a friend with benefits and the way it looks now that's the most he will ever be. He does not want to marry me and buy homes with me and build a life with me and I suppose I see the wisdom in that. I had told him yesterday that I he never showed he cared or loved me, that I bet he doesn't even think about me and he said oh no not true I think of you all the time.... I still someone how need to make peace with my feelings for him. Last night sitting across from him in the diner it took everything I have to not go slide over and hold him and be close to him. Especially when his hand started to twitch and he told me his eye and face twitch sometimes too. Mary has told me that he is going to get sick this spring and need to be cared for, she said he will come to me and want to stay there with me ....if she's right I will but I hope for his sake she is wrong, he will worry if he's sick who's paying the bills and taking care of the house... He promised to still help me move and I decided that if he can find ways to see me now and again I will do that. I can learn to appreciate what little of him I do get and not want more and I can trust in my god that he will in time bring me a man who does want me or show Randy how to love and believe in us. I have made peace with this and I am not feeling pain over it, not feeling sadness, just acceptance and I cant tell you how significant this is. The me I was even just a year ago would go between crying and being sad to rage and anger at Randy and God and life in general for not giving me what I wanted in this situation, and I must admit there were a few tears last night.... But the new me knows that whatever is happening, whatever is the way things are is the way things are meant to be.... I wont be getting my house on Sunset with the great bay views, I wont be getting to spend the rest of my life with my sou lmate, not now anyway...... But I think we will stay friends, and continue to be there for one another when we really need each other, and I think I am meant to stay single a while longer and do this ministry, plan these events, leave my SpiritStones, grow CassiesCalendar, those are the signs I have been getting.

So today is a new beginning for me, I am choosing still to move to the place where my heart is, I am choosing to be at peace with being single still and the fact that the only man I want (so far) is a block away and I can't be with him. Its crazy to everyone I know but I for some reason feel peaceful just knowing he's not far. I will leave him in peace to his life and to his family, if something big goes down I know he would come as he knows I would for him, we care about each other that way. My new beginning is a new attitude and that is one of peaceful acceptance of what is.....Randy doesn't want to marry me, he didn't want to when we were together and we thought I could be pregnant why would he now. I accept that in peace and won't waste any more of my life thinking I can get him to be who I want him to be.

Today what can you do to change your world? What attitudes can you adujust to make your life more peaceful and content the way it is? The earth has always been one of change and those who survive learn how to adapt..2011 is a year of shifting and changing, if you pay attention to what's going on around the world the evidence is there....the message is clear, adapt and change....or perish.....which do you choose?




With Love and in the Light,  Cassie

The Animal Mass Death Enigma - Time line - What did the ancients know? 
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyBdtg_RQRE 

When our days become dreary with low hovering clouds of despair, and when our nights become darker than a thousand midnights, let us remember that there is a creative force in this universe, working to pull down the gigantic mountains of evil, a power that is able to make a way out of no way and transform dark yesterdays into bright tomorrows.

Let us realize the arc of the moral universe is long but it bends toward justice.Let us realize that William Cullen Bryant is right: "Truth crushed to earth will rise again." Let us go out realizing that the Bible is right: "Be not deceived..., God is not mocked. Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap." This is our hope for the future, and with this faith we will be able to sing in some not too distant tomorrow with a cosmic past tense, "We have overcome, we have overcome, deep in my heart, I did believe we would overcome."

Martin Luther King, Jr, conclusion of his speech: Where do we go from here