Friday, March 18, 2011
3-18-11 Moon powered Manifesting!
3-18-11 Moon powered Manifesting!
So are you ready for it? The HUGE super moon this weekend? This is truly the time to let go of the past that did not serve you and bring in what you been asking for. Me I have asked the universe for three things: a new home, a promotion (or more income somehow), and a man! Hey I don't always order this big but truly these three things I need! LOL
Monday night I was talking to a friend and I told her out loud that I had decided I really wanted the house in town on 2nd street, at first I had a few doupts but my realtor was right it was just some cosmetic stuff that I could handle and it had helped me to make a steal of an offer on the place. It wasnt 3 min after that I got a text from him asking for some documents for the bank to go with my offer! I e-mailed my lawyer and CCed the banks realtor. I got a little distressed when I found out he hadn't sent everything in yet though but driving to work the next day I was praying about it and peace came over me that it was in gods hands. I also got brave at work and applied for an open position that required a degree that I don't have therefore I can't apply for it through the usual channels BUT I have done everything they ask and I have held a title that high at my consulting agency job so what the heck you don't make any of the shots you don't take right? Maybe my house thing is waiting on a promotion for me, that would get me a better interest rate if my income was higher...
Tuesday I was all happy too about having registered my new website cassiescooperative.com I have big plans for this! I found a picture that I like (for some reason I am fixated on sunsets and purple skys over the water these days) I called Mary and we arranged to meet for dinner so she could introduce me to her friend who does websites. I don't really know why but I am having anxiety over choosing someone to do this. I guess because I see it as a money maker and I know I need to get someone I can trust. My biggest desire is to find a way to support myself outside of corporate america, make helping people my full time job. My last webmaster clamied to do all this work and I gave him reduced rent and he did very little and only after much begging. I am also still raw from the fall out of my social network friends whom I was trying to work with so we could all make some money together. I am one who will share everything that I have because I know God blesses us when we give and its my nature, but I often find myself being taken advantage of, and enabling people to be dependent. There's a big difference between putting your hand out to help someone up and actually carrying them for a long time. But anyway Mary and I talked much about my idea and she really likes it and thinks I can help others very much with this and make some income. I am going to give my webmaster a percentage to work for free, if this turns out to be the money maker I anticipate this is a true gift for them, one that God needs to show me who is worthy and will honor this gift and have my same philosophies.
We also talked about Randy because he is never far from my thoughts. I asked her do you think he still reads my blog? She said he would read anything I wrote but he may not be able to find it now that it's moved (Randy's not the sharpest tool online) I asked her how it looks for this to turn out and if she sees a time frame for her leaving him, she didn't know when but she said once I am down there and he feels secure that I am staying he will come over more and more till he just decides to stay with you and get her to go. I said well I am not sleeping with him till she's gone maybe he won't come around, she said he will and he will help you do repairs he so loves to be with you when he can. But are you still looking for someone and I said yes, she said good, and go out down there because I still see someone better coming for you and you will have to choose. I told her I am open to whatever happens. I then went home and as I was folding my laundry my little voice said: Why does Randy deserve you? And you know what I couldn't think of any reason..........huummmmm Not how he's been this time anyway, yep since he didnt take me when I freely offered IF there's another chance he's going to have to work for it....he'll have to do the inner healing he's been running from all his life.
Wednesday morning I had to go pick up Jeremy and take him to work with me because he had an unemployment meeting in Somerville the next day. He of course called me at 9pm to tell me this and that he had no ride, remember how it feels when they are in 1st grade and they say they need x y or z for class tommorow, at bedtime? This is the same feeling only you're older and more tired. LOL But I got him, took him to the office, got him breakfast and worked a bit than ran him over, I barely got back to my desk and he texted he was done. Grrrr In the end I took a half day and finally acted on something my little voice had nagged me to do for some time but fear of money kept me from it, Buy him another bike. Not that he deserves one but he does need one and I told him if he keeps it 5 yrs and doesnt wreck it break it or get it stolen its a gift, otherwise he has to pay me back. I feel good about this though and I just have to trust god to help me pay these credit cards somehow. This is how I spent my life raising these boys alone but money always came.... See him below with his new bike, oh and he managed to get my bike rack from a friends house who took it from me three years ago....we may both be loading up our bikes and taking them someplace fun to ride. I was so inspired by all this I made a new group called Biking Buddies.
Thursday I had work and spent some time talking to my realtor and getting the ball rolling on a lot of things with the house. Since this is bank owned I have to get the C of O myself so I told him to get a list of what I need to do and to ask if we can go in early, fix what we need to fix then call them to inspect because I cant pay twice and I have no place to live while waiting for it. He didnt think they would agree but I told him it was pretty much a deal breaker. He asked and they agreed! See I tell you it never hurts to ask! I also got a call from Anthony, my buddy who teaches the Improv classes. I have been considering him as a webmaster for CassiesCoOperative but didnt want to put my idea in print....well he was quite intrigued and I said I would give him 25% of profits. I know he thinks like me because he isn't greedy he also wants to help the planet and heck he's read lots of Edgar Cayce so I know he thinks like me. But he doesnt act like me, he's slow and methodical and through and does things right where as I am like someone with ADD all personality out there but its good we need both for this and I told him how next week I am meeting someone who has a spiritual radio show..... Anthony also said he thought I really had something good with the SpiritStones, he said he put the pouch of them we gave him on a shelf above where he always sits and nothing but positive things have been happening in his life since then. He said its a shame your business partner kept them all and I said yeah well I hope they are working on him and he said maybe he's over there tripping on the energy and I said yeah perhaps a real magical mystery tour! hahaha. I must confess I have been quite angry for him keeping all the product I paid for and assembled and I am so upset with myself for being tricked this way, I even gave his checks to deposit from my insurance company! But you know what its time to let all that go and forget about it and trust in the universe to bring me back something to replace the time and money I spent. I still am going to pass out the few stones I have left and someday I can buy more and start over with this business.
So there are my things. A new home, more income, a man to love me and share my path....I hope to birth these things into being this spring and into the summer and in order for these things to come to me I must let go of the past........good bye to my home by the river, let go of the stones, let go of my fear of speaking up at work, let go of wanting Randy to be my life partner and just accept him peacefully as a casual friend. I am going to get to or do a full moon ritual this weekend, the plan is to go down to Keyport and do it there and transfer my energy from here to there....and next week is the spring equinox! Time to change!
Today focus on what you need to let go of and what you want to bring into your life.........the powers and the energies are so very strong right now......don't waste them.......think wisely........focus on what you want and don't give a second thought to what you do not want....
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
Sheryl Crow - "A Change Would Do You Good"
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
3-14-11 The Circle of Life
3-14-11 The Circle of Life
We are approching a full moon and the vernal equinox, a new spring is upon us a new cycle of life after our long winters rest...are you ready to bloom and grow?
Thursday night I didn't end up having dinner with Mary as the roads were flooding and she couldn't make it up, much as I love my dinners with Mary this probaly was God's way of answering my prayer I made earlier in the day to please help me to get my blog finished, my newsletter sent and my bills paid after work tonight. LOL Dustin also called me too and we got to talk awhile which doesn't happen often- we talked for a good while too till we hit the area where we disagree on religion. It was going along so well, we found many ways where we do agree, he seemed interested in my newest business for the people idea that I have too. All was well till we got to the part where I said just please don't preach to Jeremy what a sinner he is, he needs to know God's love in order to come to him, and he is perfect child of god who's just made some wrong choices, he is not a sinner no one is a sinner. Well that ruffled his feathers and he left me with a question to ponder: If there are no sinners then why did Jesus come and die for our sins? Ahh but there he went back to thinking that I think the bible we read today is still the word of God that he sent for us.....my faith is that Jesus lived and died for US, to show us how it works, not to pay a price for our karmic depts, that is our OWN dept to pay not anyone elses...after all if it worked that way we could frolic and sin and God could keep sending down people to die for us over and over and much like spoiled children we would never learn anything now would we? At least that's my thinking on the subject... He also bashed my Reiki ties on his facebook page, he thinks its some sort of mumbo jumbo that goes against God...for that one I yelled at him and told him to not bash what he knows nothing about. I told him that it was after I took Jeremy for his first treatment on the full moon at Christmas time that he started his path of healing and change and its true! Oh when will we learn to not bash what we do not understand?
Friday night I had an event that was dissapointing, I had planned something special in Princeton, drove all the way down 206 in horrendous rush hour traffic, ate dinner alone and then sat in the cold waiting for the 12 people who said they were coming.......one came. Yup one, and I would think it was me if not for the fact that the other organizers have the same problems, people RSVP yes then change their minds and don't bother to tell us. And then they say oh well make the pre-pay then they will come, but no that doesnt work either because they all sit around waiting to see who will sign up before they decide to sign up like they are in Jr high! Are you feeling my frustration here? Don't get me wrong I have been so blessed to be such a good networker and to bring so many people together, and I stil want to do it some but seriously peoples behavior seems to be get increasingly self centered. But......for saturday night I teamed up with another organizer and posted her event on my groups, we did dinner and Karaoke and I must say we had a blast! I think at least half the people who came did so from my groups, and they joined hers too so we shared and there was one moment that really touched my heart that night. I don't know how many of you have been reading my blog since the start but if you recall, about this time last year I sold my first set of SpiritStones, on MardiGras weekend, at a Karaoke event! It had been a day of firsts for me, the first time I tried Improv , the first time I sang Karaoke and the fist set of stones that I sold. Well anyway the woman who bought that first set from me was there, and I must say this has been a year of transformation for her as well. She pulls out her lavender satin pouch and says Cassie I am down to my very last stone, I gave them all out and I want you to have the last one and keep it very safe and never loose it. I took it from her and saw that it was the clear crystal one, the most powerful one of all. So what I had given out came full circle back to me....I may have lost my business partner and all the stones, bags and scrolls I paid for to start the business but the spirit I created when I set off on this path has remined true. I took the stone greatfully knowing that it would form a bond between us forever and I said oh wait you forgot to put your intention for me into the stone and she said oh no no I didn't forget.....I asked for something very very special for you....she didn't tell me what but I believe it is something very special...
Sunday I was feeling a little under the weather, and it was the "spring forward" weekend so I had lost an hour of sleep. I talked to a few friends and I spent a lot of the day reflecting on the past year and how much I have grown and how much I have yet to do and a bit about what I want to do next. The news stories of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan was all over the message boards, and I even saw one of the possiblity that Atlantis had been found! I reflected on the conversation I had with Mary the day before on how upset I am with myself that I keep thinking about Randy so much this week, she told me that she thinks he's trying to contact me energetically, that he misses me and it really would serve me to get past my anger over him chosing to be with her. She encouraged me to message him so I decided to on this day and I texted: Do you know any body who is a handy man and can do some work for me cheap for cash? (he had offered to help me but I figued now I won't have sex with him anymore he won't help me) He texted back: No...........I was going to let it go but my voice egged me on so I asked: If I pay you will you help me? I braced myself for the rejection........his reply came: Sure. I felt relieved and happy to see that we probably can salvage a friendship out of all this. I love him and I can't make that go away no matter how much anger and indignation I try and bury it under, and while he has chosen to live his life with her and her kids I know he loves ME. We have come full circle, back to where we started off as friends when he first messaged me last spring, all he said he wanted was a friend with benifits it was I who tried to make it more than he wanted, I am glad that I came to accept him this way......some people come into your life and stay awile but then there are some people who stay not one but through other lives as well.....I belive he and I share such a bond. I can't give my body to him anymore while he has another "wife", I can't hurt myself that way anymore, but forever I know our souls are meshed. So no matter who ends up coming along and marrying me one of these days I can honor the friendship Randy and I have and not feel sad that he doesn't want me to be his wife.
I also talked to my buddy a bit on sunday, he confessed to me that he broke up with his girlfriend and he felt really bad about it for hurting her but he just wasnt feeling it. I saw this coming and frankly wondered what took him so long to do this. Sometimes I wonder why he and I maintain our friendship because it is a very passionate one, we fight often but we always make up again, it even began the day of a huge altercation, actually the day that i first "invented" the concept of my SpiritStones, he was the inspiration for them! I marveled how far he had come these two years since then and how our friendship had so many rocky times but we survived. He truly has a desire to help others to grow and evolve and also with a weight loss plan he has been succesful at. He was up to 300lbs at one time and now he wants to guide me through his plan so I can lose my weight. I think I can help him help others too. He's also going to be getting a boat and is very happy that the new home I bid on is 3 blocks from a boat dock...we happily made plans of weekend long boating parties, biking trips and BBQs at my place this summer....
This weekend we get another full moon and not only that but it's going to be VERY close to the earth, some scientists are predicting all kinds of natural disasters. I think we have already have been having plenty of those already this year! I just wonder if anyone's going to pay attention? It's time to come full circle people, you've had time to walk your paths and learn your lessons and make your mistakes and come into your own growth in your own time but now the universe is shaking herself like a wet dog, shivering from what we have done to her, preparing for a new cycle that is to come.......we must raise ourselves up to go with it or we will be washed away...... In an intentions workshop with my shaman a few years ago I got a message that I would be 50 and planning my wedding.......well my 50th year is halfway gone, and I have no idea who it's going to be but I know that I am going to marry someone.......my king is coming soon I must be ready....
Today I want you to reflect on the circle of your past year and see if it took you to the point that you wanted to be? Of if you just ended up back where you started a little older, a little more weary but none the wiser and still the same? Reflect on that a bit this week and prepare yourself for the full moon this weekend and its extra added punch of energy, think about what you want to release that did not serve you and what you want to bring to your life in its place.......me as I complete my cirlce I just want to love. love. love love LOVE!.......and see what this next cycle of the year will bring me.....
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
Lion King - Circle of Life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vX07j9SDFcc
It's the Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life
"Once the torch that we carry to illuminate the way to our destiny is lit, we must surround ourselves not by people who will judge us negatively and smother our flame, but by people who will walk beside us and help us carry our torch when our arms become tired... " ~Debi Hebel
Outlaw Poet .....yearning for his love like i am...
Timothy Johnson
Timothy Johnson
waiting for my soul mate to open his eyes and come find me...........I was promised I'd be planning a wedding when I was 50.....my 50th year is halfway gone.......
Thursday, March 10, 2011
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