3-10-11 Everything Happens for a Reason

3-10-11  Everything Happens for a Reason

Well we all hear this phrase said but do you belive it every time? If not you should......it really is something you ought to write down somewhere and never forget it.

Sunday afternoon I had my Singles Improv class that I set up with Anthony to help the people of my singles group who are shy about talking and mingling. My little voice kept nagging me to ask Jeremy to go but I kept arguing that no he would not want to to go, its a long day, I want to go to mass first , I can't afford to buy him dinner........in the end my voice won (it can be really relentless sometimes, don't know why I even bother to argue! LOL) and to my amazement he said yes! So off we went and I had NO idea how he would react but he actually was very good! We had a good day and a nice dinner at the diner together on the way home. I also think we are onto something with this idea....Anthony said that he was truly good and he should take a real class, driving home we went through Rutgers and he told me how kewl he thinks that place is as once he rode his bike there with his friend.......this is what my son needs.....

Monday was back to work and same old same old there, we have another new postiton to fill and now they are talking about posting outside the company, doesn't look like they are going to promote me so I am going to end up doing what I always have to do and that is get another job someplace else to move up. This happens to me so much because I do a good job and they get comfortable having me there doing that job they don't want to replace me.......dumb move on thier part because I sit quietly , working hard, taking on more responsiblitity, nose to the grind stone only for so long w/o due compensation and promotion. It's very imporant  to recognize your value and if you are in a job that they don't pay you want you are worth you really do a diservice to yourself by not speaking up and getting that raise or promotion that is due you. Conversely if you are paid well and don't give accordingly trust me karma will catch up to you sooner or later on that....so I have set out to apply for other positions with a higher pay grade....we will see where fate takes me...

Tuesday night I got a call and my good buddy and assitant event organizer wanted to meet me for dinner, said he had a good business idea. So I met him and he bought me dinner which was nice and he talked about his idea for buying and marketing vitamin supplements to help people lose weight, he had been up to 300 lbs at one point in his life after his divorce but he has slimmed down a great deal due to this plan of his. He had nagged me the week before big time to get on his diet but I told him I was too stressed right now to try this. He at fiirst thought it was just and excuse but we did manage to communicate and he agreed I should get the move under my belt before I try this. I happily reported to him though that I had decided to go back to my doctor and get on welburtin again, it had helped me kick the smoking habit several years ago and also helped me curb the stress eating too. Now you will find with me that I don't much believe in medications, as I tell my Doctor when she chastises me for not taking my blood pressure meds when I work for J&J:  I make em I don't take em! LOL But seriously while natural and  holistic methods are prefferd I do believe mondern traditional medicine is also called for at sometimes. I do plan to start off with the Welbutrin to help me and once I loose some of this weight and can be more active I can realy on the natural endorphins to kick in and help me. So stay tuned for this, if he does this we will work togehter and market and sell his product and dieet phillosophy. It also got me even more fired up for another idea that I have and I contacted Manu, my web hosting site to see if he wanted to partner up on a project.....stay tuned....

Wednesday night Jeremy had court and asked me to drive him there, it was for the charge back in the summer when he stole my car and I let them search it because we thought they took it to NYC to buy drugs...(they did take it to NYC to do what remains a mystery) anyway they had found a pipe and a small amount of weed that actually was mine, I don't smoke anymore only a couple of times at my BBQ's and event then I don't like to, gives me the muchies and makes me too horny! haahaha So of course I had forgotten that was in there when I said sure search my car! Needless to say my son was angry for having to "take the rap" for this as he had managed to always elude such scenarios despite his heavy indulgence. He did see the reasoning that I could lose my job over such a charge and HE did actually take MY car......But he was angry when I picked him up for court... We also go into it because I had posted a link on his facebook page about the Mayan calendar shift for 3-9-11 and Dustin had posted and started calling me a fool and condeming my beliefs and saying that what Jeremy needed was Jesus. I said Jeremy needs to know Gods love and to know all faiths. Jeremy said he wanted to learn about all things and make up his OWN mind and I liked that one, but I told him don't you EVER let them make you belive you are a sinner....you are a perfect child a creation of God who's just made some wrong choices and gone down a few wrong paths......all ya gotta do is say I am sorry, pay your dues and try a different path.... I did promise to not fight with his brother on his facebook page, as he said I am the mother after all and I gotta be the bigger person and stand down. My heart is so saddened though by my older boys chosen path of faith that teaches him to condem all others, but I must just keep praying for him and at least be glad that he has a faith.

Anway court went fast and I was still awake to go back and pick him up, I had told him to pray for a ride home and God would get him one and he did! (In our township court goes well past midnight becuse they write so many charges these days) All Jeremy got was probation, and a fiine, there's always a fine. He has to go for counseling and a drug check once a month. I told him see you do wrong and its just a question of money and time to pay it back. Yeah he says and you know this is probably good for me cuz it will make me cut way back on how much I use, that has gotten out of hand. Good then I said, and I knew then this all happned for a reason........he is street smart that bugger he probably never would have gotten a drug charge and he NEEDED a drug charge if that makes any sense to any one out there. I reacalled back on that night last august and I prayed Dear God help me help my son-------and woke up to my car being stolen.......my friend Victor had said then to trust in God that there would be a reason for to this and he was right and miraculosly both of us could see it too!  I drove Jermy home then and we talked more about him going to Keyport with me and making a fresh start, I did tell him though please keep in mind its temporary, I need you to come down and get established and get your own place........I Love you so much Jeremy but I like you so much more now that we don't live together and he nodded that he agreed, still its good to have each other we take care of each other......sunday I am taking him and his roomate to my church with me and then I am taking them to the St patricks Day parade.........

I also talked to Mary last night and am meeting her for dinner tonight, she checks in on me now and again. I told her how I placed a Craigslist ad for hiking/motorcyle and Randy texted me and I yelled at him, I then placed and ad for Sandy Hook partner but only one guy wrote, asked me a few questions then blew me off, I yelled at him too....I asked Mary if she sensed it was someone Randy put up to writing me and she felt that it was....I reflected then on the third and last ad about Geocashing I had posted and got no respones and I wondered why I had been inspired to post them. Then I reflected on the big energy shift that happend these past few days and the full moon soon to come with extremely powerful energies....I think they wanted me to post those to make him miss me and make him pray to God to fix this situation-- like I told him at Christmas time-- so you don't know how to solve this God does know, all you have to do is ASK for his help.......yes I think I was inspired to post those for that  reason.......then again I am thinking too much I should just allow to happen whatever happens and know God will make it right for me one way or another...

Today I want to remind you that yes EVERY THING REALLY DOES HAPPEN FOR A REASON. No matter how bad things look, something good really can come out of it........keep the faith my friends keep the faith.........


With Love and in the Light, Cassie

todays song is for my Jeremy, cuz he's so gangsta..    ;)  

For A Reason - Joe Budden

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZiwvIhTewTY

Chorus:
Lookin back on the things ive done
everything happens for a reason
life is somethin u learn from
everything happens for a reason
i gotta make a confession theres nothin im regretting
lifes a valuable lesson to have to pull out a weapon
so dont make me
life is something u learn from
everything happens for a reason

Joey B, you know me B
It's the nigga that would tryn' get the blow on GP
It's the nigga in the hood on the low G3
It's the nigga some niggaz want so does he please
Is it 'cause he make the flow look so easy
Or do he sit and count up all the dough that he see
Or do they wanna prove they OG and use me
To get the guns out, sending him to ODB
But what I ever did to a nigga? Aside give to a nigga
Try to show the big pic to a nigga
But I can't conclude how some niggaz conclude
That the world is too small for them to live with a nigga
I don't regret dude trying me, dude keeping that eye on me
Then they gotta live with this thing called irony
And if I gotta live with the idea reminding me
Then they can't live when the iron's on me, yeah!

Chorus:
Lookin back on the things ive done
everything happens for a reason
life is somethin u learn from
everything happens for a reason
i gotta make a confession theres nothin im regretting
lifes a valuable lesson to have to pull out a weapon
so dont make me
life is something u learn from
everything happens for a reason

Things just ain't the same for gangstas
And so I bear my soul, my pain, my anger
I beg to the Lord, keep me far from mo' danger
Look I know 'em but can't see 'em, he's a popular stranger
If I never got stabbed, wouldn't remember Veronica's wrath
Standing in the shower looking at the scab
I wouldn't know the hints of a stick-up kid
If I ain't have that short stint as a stick-up kid
If dude never tried to kill me, I mighta went numb
To all the bullshit that goes on where I'm from
And if I never went to jail, wouldn't needed a bail
Woulda probly went on to graduate from Yale
Woulda been a prosecutor standing in the court of law
But then that goes against everything he stands for
And if I never met Glo, how would I really know
All the shit that comes with, when you dealing with a ho
See it is what it is to be
Or it is what it is, at least that's what it is to me
And so if I could ever go back in history
I wouldn't change shit, I'd leave it all just to be
And if my first album woulda did five when it dropped
I'd be chillin, instead of tryna' rise to the top
If I could reverse the roles, would I reverse the roles?
Would it be worth it to try to reverse the tolls?

Chorus:
Lookin back on the things ive done
everything happens for a reason
life is somethin u learn from
everything happens for a reason
i gotta make a confession theres nothin im regretting
lifes a valuable lesson to have to pull out a weapon
so dont make me
life is something u learn from
everything happens for a reason

I got a brother always keeps it real, his name's Guilt
Let's me know I can't stand however it is I feel
I got a cousin named Pride, nigga acts like a lawyer
Gotta a sister named Karma, I be tryna' avoid 'er
Gotta ex that's bitter, wants me to be her nigga
Hates my girl Self-Pity 'cause I'm always with her
But bitter's beef is valid, she don't like shorty 'cause she use me
One time she seen 'er verbally abuse me
Got a friend that's passive, friends call him Passive
He just says whatever hoping that shit passes
My Uncle Hindsight wears real thick glasses
Reminds me of where I been and how shit gets drastic
Got a Aunt named Humility, she speaks low mumbles
Don't care that I'm a rapper she keeps me so humble
In my head I'll debate it, outloud I'll never say it
I'm pretty sure it's a good reason we all related