outlaw poet....

Timothy Johnson NEXT SUMMER on a desert backroad..feeling a warm gentle breeze..there was no need for clothes..yes your long hair flowing..your tanned body sensually breathing..you was all i wanted to see..it was scooters in june..some old waylon and willie tunes..in the shadow of the moon..we made love......the outlaw poet......KEEP DREAMING YOUR DREAMS


next summer's hard to belive in with winter at my door...


Timothy Johnson i would change the color of the sky..patch your wings so you could fly..this old dog would learn new tricks..sing some songs to make you rich..you are worth all that to me..for you to be free..i would even set you free..thats the way love should be..........the outlaw poet

i do need to be free, no controlling men for me...

Timothy Johnson if i could paint a rainbow up in the sky..you would see colors of the world flowing everywhere..red for the hearts that are dancing in love..gold for the souls who give more then they receive..blue for the lonely telling them to believe..if i could paint a rainbow up in the sky..you would see colors of love touching ev...erywhere..........the outlaw poet......PAINT THE WORLD WITH LOVE TODAY

love love love.....


Timothy Johnson when your heart talks..you need to listen..for it is these unspoken words..these unsung songs..where love belongs..look with your heart..not your eyes..for only then can you see..beauty thats real..looks you can feel..listen to your heart if you want to dance..giving love a chance..............the outlaw poet


Timothy Johnson you had to be strong..crying silent tears..to make it through your nights..your weary soul still stood..tall against your fears..when you wanted to hide..you faced the world alone..with only your dreams..showing you a light..you just lean on me..for you are my angel..its all going to be all right.....the outlaw poet DEDICATED TO MY HEROES WOMEN WHO NEVER GAVE UP

yes a man i can lean on thats what I need...

Go light your world

11-8-10 Light the Darkness

11-8-10 Light the Darkness

So how is everyone holding out? I have been going through some really stressful times in my life with the move, the ex-BF, the son, life in general but the tides are shifting and things are changing and I know I am going to ride this storm out and be ok in the end.

It started friday, I deleted Randy off every single contact list that I had. I can't live a lie and I can't move on when I am holding onto someone like that. I knew if I kept hearing him logging on and off AOL, or saw his name in my phone or his address on my e-mail address book I'd be tempted in a weak moment. No I had told him to contact me when or if he was ever free so there is no need for me to hang onto his contact info..... My friends had invited me to celebrate Diwali with them, try a meditation session and then got to temple to take fruit to Baba so I accepted. I am a catholic by baptism but I figured if my God wasn't answering my prayers right now let me try someone else s! LOL Truthfully in my mind it's all the same God, and one never should be afraid to go and celebrate the faith of a friend, you will probably learn what I always learn is that while the traditions are so different the basics are still the same.....

I arrived at my friends place, who is also going to be the web-host of CassiesCalendar now and since I was early we first talked some business and he is going to set up to handle ticket purchases, incorporate my business, and handle all the accounting for us for a small percentage. I am not a strong businesswoman collection wise, my talents always have been the front end bring the people in sort and marketing. But I know that Manu is good with business as he just bought himself a very nice Mercedes, nope this was the man to handle that end of it and as it turns out Diwali was a very special day to settle on a business agreement! We had a good evening, my soul resonates well with the traditions of his faith, and I was pleased to know that it was a New Year, a re-setting of Karma, a fresh start. Manu and I also talked of working together in the future and doing meditation workshops together....

Saturday I went down to Keyport to look for a rental but I didn't find anything I liked. I didn't get why the card of the day was Answered Prayer when nothing was working out, especially with the house on Sunrise but we did go back to another one that is for sale and vacant for a long time. I don't like the lay out of it, the fact its two stories and no central AC, however it does have a 2 car garage and two bedrooms all of which I can rent out and essentially live there practically free. So he said he'd look into a lease to own, that should protect me in case the sale of my house comes in really low or takes a long time. I guess sometimes the answer to your prayers isn't the answer that you wanted, still you must keep the faith that God has a good plan for you...

Saturday evening I went out dancing with my friends Fun and Friendly Singles group. It was good to get out as I haven't done much of that lately, and she and I discussed some ways for her to start making a little money with her group and the possibility of also working together. I didn't stay out late though, just not into the real late nights and the loud clubs, there wasn't room to dance or I probably would have felt differently.

Sunday my friend had gotten a deal for his NYC photo walks group to go on a boat cruise on the Hudson which included lunch, belly dance lessons and a comedy show for a fourth the price of what it normally costs, with his offer to borrow a camera and to drive I couldn't pass that up. I am glad I went also, I ended up getting a few good shots and I think I will delve into this photography thing more. He said my shots were quite good. I got to pass out my business cards to the event organizers, the comediennes and belly dancers and the boat owner. I also came up with a new idea for a social group and my friend RJ is going to be a partner with me on that one, he's been an extremely successful business man his whole life also.....

All in all a good weekend for re-setting my Karma and letting go of all that concerns and upsets me. We all need a re-set now and again......... Today I woke up to my son in jail, the property I was going to be making a lease to purchase option sub-divided and a second house being jammed in next to me, and a full work load at the office........however.....since I did a re-set I am fresh and ready to face it, the light of Diwali has been lit inside me, I can face this, I can even see the good in these situations.......

Today, slay the demons, the depressions, the frustrations and the fears that torment you by focusing on the light, trust me it will get brighter and stronger and warmer as we move closer to it.......we will all get through this dark time and dance in the sunshine once again!

With Love and in the Light, Cassie
Go Light Your World




The evil need not necessarily come in the form of demons. Desperation, depression and frustration can cause much more damage to one's life than the demons that you have not seen.
Diwali is a reminder to slay all that is negative to our life. Especially in today's global economic situation, on this festival of lights, let your inner light remain on.


PS:
I tossed a few spiritstones into the Hudson while I was there.....however I think that body of water is going to need a few TONS of spiritstones! LOL

some pics from my boat trip yesterday

 

outlaw poet.....

Timothy Johnson dont feed him..let the devil take him home..they said it didnt matter..into the darkness let him roam..standing naked before the crowds..you could see in his eyes..he had no place to hide..he was left to die..then he decided to ride..left to die with fire still in his eyes..with a love he will never hide..now even jesu...s smiles..as he rides and flys tonight..........the outlaw poet

I would never hide my love...


Timothy Johnson someday you may feel me..as a single drop of rain..or hear me whispering..from a distant railroad train..and when our stories told..it will be of loves refrain..there will never come a time..when i wont call your name............the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson for a pocket full of gold..i will not change my direction..so i may always be a stranger..to those setting in my judgement...giving clothing out in the cold..is a walk that i will walk..so my pockets may be empty..in my faded pair of jeans...peace can never grow old..for even in lifes darkest storms..my heart can see t...he light..and i still know my name..........the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson ‎..i do not understand..why one would choose..a broken path of sadness..instead of a walk in happiness..i would hold their hand..each and everyone..looking for lifes sunshine..with peace shinning on everyone..i know we all can..choose smiles over anger..for loves easier then hating..kind words are gods wishes..as for me..i choose love.....the outlaw poet

I can't keep choosing a love that doesnt choose me, the pain of it is destroying me..

Timothy Johnson i lost a woman to find my lady..to believe love is alive today..trading empty feelings..so i could know happiness again..yes i had to lose to win....i lost a woman to find my lady..for a path of peace and love today..trading broken promises..so i could see my dreams again..yes i had to lose to win...past the pain and drowning rain..into my life she came..my lady called my name........the outlaw poet

yes i lost a boy so that i can find a man...

Timothy Johnson how many poisen arrows do they need..before my heart can no longer bleed..yes and how low can a good man go..before he has no love to show..how can one take a loving heart..and coldly just rip it apart..yes and dont they know in killing me..they will forever set me free........the outlaw poet

yes yes he killed me and it set me free...


Timothy Johnson i dont like sad songs..feelings of sorrow or everyone crying along songs..i want to find a band rocking along with happiness..so everyone can dance...lovers walking hand in hand..in step with dreams a woman and her man..i only want happy songs singing of lifes beauty..where everyone sings along.......the outlaw poet

someone come take my hand...

Timothy Johnson ill come around..when youre in a valley..look up above the mountain..ill be the north star in your sky..i can always be found..ill come around....ill come around..when your rivers overflowing..land on my sandy shores..ill be the sails to hold your wind..i can always be found..ill come around.........the outlaw poet

come soon....


Timothy Johnson leaving nowhere to somewhere with a song..wanna tag along..taking reservations baby..all day long......heading towards the light no need for clothes..where lovers go..baby youd be the star of our show....fast ride to a slow place..where love calls home..no stops along the way..........the outlaw poet..........LETS RIDE ..

still looking for my home....don't know where I belong now that i have no love....



Timothy Johnson ive sung songs of hope beside a campfire..at a homeless camp for my friends..ive danced with a princess in her palace..never forgetting where ive been..ive shared the dreams of those hiding..just wanting a place to fit in..i was forever humbled by a living saint..saying jesus called me his friend..now i set quiet..by lifes river..hoping love will visit me......the outlaw poet

yes hoping love will visit me too..

Timothy Johnson come join me..lets find us a place..where the world..doesnt know we're there..ill hold you..while our eyes only see..the essense of love..which is floating everywhere..just kiss me..in a place only you know..where only soulmates..live in this air..ill love you..past forever and a day..come join me..let a warm wind caress......the outlaw poet.......LOVE WILL WIN


i wish i had a world where only soulmates live..

Timothy Johnson theres someones mother in an alley..sleeping behind a dumpster..for meth her souls been sold..a mothers sons mind is still fighting..still hiding from a war..his blood still running cold..a child lays awake crying..just wanting to be loved..for being alone has grown so old..how do we forget about this?......the outlaw ...poet....LOVE IS NEEDED BY THOSE FEELING LIKE THEY DONT MATTER~LETS GIVE LOVE SO EVERYONE MATTERS

my son's in trouble tonight but i cant save him..

Timothy Johnson its late at night..and somewhere out there..my lady she lays sleeping..i think of her..while my mind wonders..what she may be feeling..in her dreams..am i there with her..as she reaches to kiss me..when she turns..will she whisper softly..dont ever leave..does she love me......the outlaw poet THIS IS DEDICATED TO ALL... OF US WHO ARE ALONE TONIGHT YET KNOWING OUR LOVE IS OUT THERE NEVER GIVE UP

i sure feel like giving up though..


Timothy Johnson thank god i found you..for so many years..i gently held you..in a hidden place in my heart..i could feel your touch..i could hear your whispers..in my dreams in the dark..thank god i found you..my light in the night..we will forever ride......the outlaw poet.....LOOK WITH YOUR HEART NOT YOUR EYES THEN YOU WILL SEE THE ONE LOOKING FOR YOU

but my heart betrays me so often....

The Hunger....

When Christ said that man does not live by bread alone, he spoke of a hunger. This hunger was not the hunger of the body. It was not the hunger for bread. He spoke of a hunger that begins deep down in the very depths of our being. He spoke of a need as vital as breath. He spoke of our hunger for love.

Love is something you and I must have. We must have it because our spirit feeds upon it. We must have it because without it we become weak and faint. Without love our self-esteem weakens. Without it our courage fails. Without love we can no longer look out confidently at the world...

But with love, we are creative. With it, we march tirelessly. With it, and with it alone, we are able to sacrifice for others.


Chief Dan George, 1899-1981
Native Canadian Indian Tribal Leader

Hall and Oates - Private Eyes

11-1-10

11-1-10     Privacy I find it interesting that the day after I write to you about taking off masks I am called to write to you about privacy. LOL But last night I was reading about this very thing in Osho's book on Intimacy and my angel card today is Study and my horoscope said I was about to get some really great news but I should keep it under wraps for awhile......so I am going to heed my signs... So I am reading his book and he discusses how important it is for the seed to first begin to grow in darkness, like the seed or the catepillar, we must go inside to heal and to grow and to change. He spoke of how taxing it can be to be a celebrity and how you can loose yourself that way. I know being an organizer of a large social network can be taxing on me sometimes and I often love to go and spend time alone to get away from the bustle. I have had several people comment on how I throw a BBQ, 150 people come and then I end up sitting in the house hiding out! LOL But it's true I do need to have my private space. He also talked about the importance of privacy in dating relationships. I know it was a strain for me and one of my boyfriends, he used to like it that I had this huge network and he said he felt like the King to my Queen of the internet, but when I did put it one time about him being goofy at the store when we were matress shopping someone at work read it and commented and he didnt like that. I also have always said love never grows well in a fish bowl and advised all my single friends to keep the relationship quiet for the first three months. I also recall how despite the fact that I was kind about it when I broke up with my ex he said people were writing to him and giving him sympathy and it was worse than the break up of Sony and Cher!  And more than one social network friend said he would never date me because I know everyone and he'd fear losing all his friends! I am not like that but still there is a level of discomfor there when emotions are involved... With all this in mind I decided that whomever I date next, I am keeping it to myself and out of my blogs for the most part, at least for the begining, and then only will I share what really I can use as a story to help others and not disclose so much that should be private between us. I do feel this whole quest of mine this summer and how I handled it and what I learned is going to be a help to someone someday. But the next one, yeah thats going to be private and mine and his and intimate, no one will need the blow by blow. I know often times my anger for something or other he did was fueld by my friends, and when I used to get upset about him not being at my events with me cuz he was out with the boys wasn't just about me missing him but about how I looked to my friends that my man was not with me.... Think about it, when choosing someone how much are you choosing what YOU want and how much is choosing what your friends or family is going to approve of? or perhaps dis-approve of? You know there is also superstition too about the evil eye, the malocchio, and you know I do believe there is some truth to that old story....not because of some evil powers but because of the law of attraction, when we think good things we bring good things when we think bad things we bring bad things.......but say we have good fortune and someone else is jealous of us or hurt by the own lack they have and they think bad of us for having, it can create a negative energy field about us. Of course God is greater and I dont want anyone to get all caught up in this but I am saying ........there's nothing wrong with a little privacy in your life too.....it made alot of sense what I read and today in the electronic world we give up way to much of ourselves out here in cyber space, for public examination and public scrutiny. If you arent strong in who you are then you will let others comments on everything you put out there sway your feelings about yourself and who you are far too much. So here I am one day telling you to take off your masks and the next day I am saying be private, or have your private moments........I think I am going to have to study this some more and get back to you.........this is a big topic but for the most part, dont wear false masks but dont walk down the street nude either! (save that for summer beaches) lol oh and by the way.........I did get some good news today...........but I am not telling till I see how it all turns out........ shhhhhhhhhh With Love and In the Light, Cassie Private Eyes https://youtu.be/JsntlJZ9h1U