1-14-11 Time to Order New Seeds!

1-14-11  Time to Order New Seeds! This week my seed catalogs came in the mail, and for the first time in 4 years I didn't toss them!, finally I am going to be in a new home! And while I won't have a fraction of the land I have here to plant on (5 acres down to 0.5) LOL I will have some space and for this I am excited...I also noted that my move near the shore has put me in a new earlier planting zone! woohoo So Monday I go to work and had a our weekly staff meeting, I brought up a new project I am doing for the group and that made everyone happy, I tend to do that think up and start doing my own projects. I also met with my boss and got my yearly review, that went well but I didn't get the promotion to the new job opening I had hoped I would get, when I asked he said oh wow didn't even think of that....he said that now its posted they have to consider others but he would mention it to his boss..... I am keeping  positive about this since several of my readings have indicated more money and moving up in my job. I need to earn more and I deserve to earn more because I work hard and take on more responsibilities. We must remember that what we ask of the universe to give to us also requires our work as well, there are no magic wands to be waved and there is no honor in hand outs. I also got word from Mike that we can put in the formal offer for the new house I had found, the one close to Randy that he can't come see me unless he comes clean to the family he lives with--- I said go ahead draw the paperwork up and since the next day was 1-11-11 I was really excited about it knowing the energy of the day would propel it forward!  Shortly after that I was on facebook and realized that The Outlaw Poet was back! I got all excited and took it as a sign that I was meant to be with Randy (as you recall all summer long his postings mysteriously reflected what was going on between us)....however let this be a lesson to you that all things you think are signs are not signs necessarily...a good rule of thumb is if your too attached to an outcome you often create signs for yourself so beware! Anyway.. I waited till his work break time and I texted him saying tomorrow is 1-11-11 make a wish and its likely to come true! I am putting the offer in on the house tomorrow..........his reply cut deep in my soul: we are not supposed to be talking. I sat there staring at it not knowing if he was being a smart ass or he was really trying to get rid of me. As I said our interaction on sat went round and round , he talks from both sides of his mouth, one foot in one foot out with me--i understand it though its a dance I know well, the dance of the wounded soul. So I sat there a bit and I finally said: Someday you are going to regret tossing aside the one person who cared about you the most (he knows its true he's said so many times) His reply to that: We're not talking- I don't hear you La La La  I was in shock, I hurt , I was mad! It lasted till I feel asleep that night and it was done. He's wounded me so many times now I am numb to him. Mary said that he just can't quit punishing you for leaving him, he won't let it go-----let him go. I am. Tuesday I did what had to be done, signed and faxed papers, sent in a deposit check all that stuff to make the bid on the house down the block , I put it as my wallpaper on my computer (3rd house hope 3's a charm) LOL and I felt peace and was glad that I had remembered to go back there on sat after Mike and I left and toss some spiritstones there. I put three, two amethyst and one rose quartz to signify a partner and love to come together there. Humm, I wonder if I should have asked to buy the king bed that was in the master bedroom now.... That night I began reading a new book I got on clearance by Sylvia Brown called Mystical Traveler...its amazing how I see myself in this book! I have given my will over to god, i have spent a life of healing and service, I have been a loner quite a bit as well. I am to do great works still I think to bring people together and to raise the consciousness of the planet....we have much coming our way more need to evolve higher! I spent the remainder of the week throwing myself feverishly into my social networking events, and I am working with several people now. Debbie and I are working on the Superbowl party, AnnMarie and I on a dinner and dance event, Anthony and I on his Improv workshops. He even let me make a graphic for him and put an affiliate of CC on it. He thanked me for believing in him which was not necessary, I do see the value of Improv on many levels and I think he and I can work together to do great things with this. I am only sorry that my old guy friend is not a part of this but I can't allow him to be until he does the right thing, its not in the cards though... but you never know who may choose a better fate and when.... Oh well at any rate for now no more wishing and dreaming and hoping its time for work...springs right around the corner! Today I want you to think about what you want to bloom in your life this spring and summer and I want you to ask yourself some hard honest questions about what you are doing to make those things come to you. I want you to stop holding on to dreams that aren't coming true, people who aren't enhancing your path, soon the time for planting will come so get ready to do that work! Throw out last year's seeds and look through the catalogs to see what new you can order to grow in your gardens this year....not to worry, if you have any perennials with good healthy roots they will sprout again..... With Love and in the Light, Cassie Winds of Change http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFh2vpGeoIk%20 "You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger." The Buddha

Outlaw poet has returned!

Timothy Johnson 
RAINDROPS from the floor of heaven..felt gentle on my skin..yes Jesus let it fall..just to give me hope again SHADOWS dancing in the sunshine..handed me a light..to walk a path of peace..with love flying up high......a path is simply a road with no direction..if there are no smiles to exchange..no friends to dance with..no beauty to see..my friends take my hand..on a path of love happiness and peace..come dance with me....
i want to ride.with you in mountains high.and swim in seas.near castles in the night.yes and we will always believe.in our love that is free.fly with me and lets ride free.....the outlaw poet


mornings are not for yesterday..its time to walk a new..no matter the season of your life..even winters can have a summer sky..all you have to do is try..with the morning tide..we can ride...i have seen those with broken wings.still trying to fly.so many with no shoes.trying so hard to walk.they cried....i have seen broken roads littered with dreams.just wanting to be alive.i have felt my heart.talk of love.saying if you give up you die....the outlaw poet








1-11-11:

Timothy Johnson love is what is left when all else is stripped away..all ego..all fear..all desire..all possessiveness..all jealousy..all need to control...at the end of it all..there is love..with its gentle roaring voice..its undeniably...if i could paint a rainbow up in the sky..you'd see colors of the world floating everywhere..red for the hearts that know love..gold for those who give more then they receive..blue for the lonely wanting to believe..if i could paint a rainbow in the sky...the outlaw poet

 

ahh today my heart it red and gold.....and a little blue too

 

Timothy Johnson I KNOW YOU like i know the morning kissed awake by sunshine up in the mountains high I KNOW YOU like i know the freedom of watching eagles soar with magic in the sky I KNOW YOU like i know how dreams walk a path of love in my sleep at night...the outlaw poet

Timothy Johnson

i wish i could whisper like the wind..or fall down gently like a snowflake..i wish i could soar like an eagle..or float with the geese on a lake..i wish you were in my arms at sunrise..or making love after the moon is late...i would change the color of the sky..patch your wings so you could fly..this ol dog would learn new tricks..sing some songs to make you rich..you are worth all that to me..for you to be happy..id even set you free..thats the way love should be.....the outlaw poet

1-9-11 Winter's Change

1-9-11   Winter's Change

New Beginnings, that was my card of the day this morning when I got up. And based on yesterday that's a fitting card indeed.

Yesterday I got up and drove down and looked at the house that's very close to Randy and I really liked it. It had all the things I need, the price is right and the only negatives are the old radiators and the window AC units I hoped to get away from, and the one small bathroom. But I lived without central air and with radiators my whole life so far, and I think we could add a half bath in the basement easily enough and there's an office next to the master bedroom that if I got really better off financially I could easily make into a master bathroom, I could even install ducts and central air and forced air heating later on too. But for now it's good enough and there are two large size bedrooms that I can get roommates in and help me pay down this credit card dept. The basement was even big and nice enough for me to use for the spiritual workshops I want to do and a place for Jeremy to live in the case that he ends up having to come down there with me. Yep I liked it but I knew Randy was going to hate it because he wouldn't be able to come over. I was conflicted on that point but mostly glad, I dont want him sneaking around to see me, either I am worth the risk or stay away if felt.

Just for safe measure though Mike and I went and looked at the second house we had an appointment for, the only other one left that I could possibly get into in time. I was hideous and it cost more and when I said to him I didn't want it I saw the look of relief on the woman's face who was there with her two small kids, possibly a single mom....boy did I recall those days and thanked God again for allowing me to have this lovely home all these years to raise my sons in. I also thought about the woman who lives with Randy and her sons there..... Anyway after leaving the house I told him to go ahead and put in the bid on the other house, we weren't going to get any better than that. I also gave him some tickets to the concert that we had been given for my group and he was very happy about that. I then headed towards Sears to get my oil changed, I had sent Randy an e-mail letting him know I was coming, telling him if he had time for lunch we could meet but I then had to head back as I wanted to go to a meetup last night. He hadn't seen the e-mail and the day didn't end up that way.....

I took my car in and texted him to keep an eye on it so they don't call me up and try to talk me into something I don't need and he said OK. I then shopped the clearance racks at Sears while I waited and found an outfit for the upcoming event in NYC and was happy to find something. My car got done and I went to pay for it and Randy drove it out and asked me to go wait for him to have lunch. He came and it was nice to see him and he talked me into going to a movie and waiting for him to get out of work. He said I am starting to think you are stalking me, coming down here house shopping, doing events near me, bringing your car to my job. I said I will stay away if you want and he said nooooooooo I like it.  I then told him about the house and he had totally mixed feelings on that one, he liked I was so close he could walk over but not that he can't come there as everyone would see his truck. I again told him if he was just honest with her, told her they can stay but he was dating me then all could be happy but he said she would leave.. he said he feared she'd leave an he'd lose his kids. So that's when I decided to tell him I was going to go out on a date with someone else. I could tell by his face he didnt like that but I thought we must be honest with one another and I intend to keep looking for a husband. In retrospect I see that I only told him to try and push him into what I wanted for us, I ended up dumping that guy today anyway, so I won't tell him anymore about dating others it only causes necessary hurt, he doesn't deserve that.

After the movie I waited for him and we hung out together and talked and spent some time together but it was cold out, I said I can't believe I am still doing this in the winter time! I said again how he wont be able to come to my house if I get this latest one and he said he could park at his moms and I could come get him, but I won't want to go out in the cold to drive you back.....no I am glad the universe is picking this house for me, it will protect me from being weak and settling for less than I truly want in my life, it will protect me from this love that is not healthy for me. It was growing colder and I said I need to head home but he wanted to go get some shrimp so we ended up going to eat at a diner and talking for two more hours..... He told me more of how things are at home and how he can't even buy groceries because they eat all of them, how the 20 yr old only works 1 day a week, how cold "the wife" is to him etc, I see the pain of his face and it almost looks like tears in his eyes......BUT.... he does not want to leave what he's got, he said I did not choose this it just happened to me its what I have to live with. He says he knows the family he has is not real but he has the illusion of having a family and he likes that, he likes to be able to say I am going home to work on my sons car...etc. He also said when he and I were together I was always sad, always crying never happy with the way things were with us, always wanting more. I guess I need to reflect on that deeper as I do know he's right. I was sad because he spent so much time going off to play with the guys, going to Vermont and not wanting to take me with him, or when he did take me I'd get bored waiting for him to come back in from sledding, or I'd get sad because he complained about my snoring and wanted me to sleep in my own room alone.

Yep I suppose today is a new beginning of me accepting that Randy is nothing more than a friend with benefits and the way it looks now that's the most he will ever be. He does not want to marry me and buy homes with me and build a life with me and I suppose I see the wisdom in that. I had told him yesterday that I he never showed he cared or loved me, that I bet he doesn't even think about me and he said oh no not true I think of you all the time.... I still someone how need to make peace with my feelings for him. Last night sitting across from him in the diner it took everything I have to not go slide over and hold him and be close to him. Especially when his hand started to twitch and he told me his eye and face twitch sometimes too. Mary has told me that he is going to get sick this spring and need to be cared for, she said he will come to me and want to stay there with me ....if she's right I will but I hope for his sake she is wrong, he will worry if he's sick who's paying the bills and taking care of the house... He promised to still help me move and I decided that if he can find ways to see me now and again I will do that. I can learn to appreciate what little of him I do get and not want more and I can trust in my god that he will in time bring me a man who does want me or show Randy how to love and believe in us. I have made peace with this and I am not feeling pain over it, not feeling sadness, just acceptance and I cant tell you how significant this is. The me I was even just a year ago would go between crying and being sad to rage and anger at Randy and God and life in general for not giving me what I wanted in this situation, and I must admit there were a few tears last night.... But the new me knows that whatever is happening, whatever is the way things are is the way things are meant to be.... I wont be getting my house on Sunset with the great bay views, I wont be getting to spend the rest of my life with my sou lmate, not now anyway...... But I think we will stay friends, and continue to be there for one another when we really need each other, and I think I am meant to stay single a while longer and do this ministry, plan these events, leave my SpiritStones, grow CassiesCalendar, those are the signs I have been getting.

So today is a new beginning for me, I am choosing still to move to the place where my heart is, I am choosing to be at peace with being single still and the fact that the only man I want (so far) is a block away and I can't be with him. Its crazy to everyone I know but I for some reason feel peaceful just knowing he's not far. I will leave him in peace to his life and to his family, if something big goes down I know he would come as he knows I would for him, we care about each other that way. My new beginning is a new attitude and that is one of peaceful acceptance of what is.....Randy doesn't want to marry me, he didn't want to when we were together and we thought I could be pregnant why would he now. I accept that in peace and won't waste any more of my life thinking I can get him to be who I want him to be.

Today what can you do to change your world? What attitudes can you adujust to make your life more peaceful and content the way it is? The earth has always been one of change and those who survive learn how to adapt..2011 is a year of shifting and changing, if you pay attention to what's going on around the world the evidence is there....the message is clear, adapt and change....or perish.....which do you choose?




With Love and in the Light,  Cassie

The Animal Mass Death Enigma - Time line - What did the ancients know? 
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyBdtg_RQRE 

When our days become dreary with low hovering clouds of despair, and when our nights become darker than a thousand midnights, let us remember that there is a creative force in this universe, working to pull down the gigantic mountains of evil, a power that is able to make a way out of no way and transform dark yesterdays into bright tomorrows.

Let us realize the arc of the moral universe is long but it bends toward justice.Let us realize that William Cullen Bryant is right: "Truth crushed to earth will rise again." Let us go out realizing that the Bible is right: "Be not deceived..., God is not mocked. Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap." This is our hope for the future, and with this faith we will be able to sing in some not too distant tomorrow with a cosmic past tense, "We have overcome, we have overcome, deep in my heart, I did believe we would overcome."

Martin Luther King, Jr, conclusion of his speech: Where do we go from here

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move

1-7-11 Making the Right Choices

 

1-7-11  Making the Right Choices

So my new year and new life has begun and I am scared and excited! I don't know which is stronger! LOL But I am on my way....this year I am going to earn my wings if everything goes as planned...

Wednesday was a very big day for me, it was the day that my realtor in Keyport was back from vacation and we were ready to make an offer on the grey house. I was working from home that day and quite glad too because I had been having nightmares all night about money and credit card dept and such. This has been quite disturbing to me too because all my "readings" keep showing plenty of money for me, even a raise and promotion, and all my signs point to not saving but to spend (I know this always means within reason) but still I was puzzled that in daylight all things point to good and ok but at night I am tormented. I was starting to think Gus was here haunting me in my sleep! He would do that too, try and make me worry, still try and make us stay in this house. Well we are going this place IS sold no more tricks and games! Jeremy and I even went to dinner tuesday night with Mary and discussed how she is going to take him to social services to see if they can give him housing now that I am leaving. I want him set up,  then get enrolled in school now he's on unemployment and given the chance to do something with his life, he's so talented and smart and he can make a good living if he can just catch a break somehow...

But anyway Wed Mike called and I gave him my bid to place and he called back about an hour later and said she said a flat out No and she was mad! Good she made me mad too by jerking me around, ok now lets see what else is there while we wait for her to calm down, get desperate and call back with a counter offer. I am not 100% sold on that house but I don't like anything else...I whined as much to Deb who just said listen you don't like the house that much or you would have offered as much as you can afford and be done with it. I am just very concerned about the small size of the bedrooms and the inability to get a roommate  in there to help me pay off my credit cards and the doorways are only 28 inches I am not sure I can get my new couch in there! Fear and worry ugh not good - nothing good can happen when you are clouded in fear and worry. Then I got to thinking about Randy again and despite the fact he's being stubborn now and all my friends say I deserve better I can't shake that destiny thing with him, I look through plenty of fish and hot or not and I just get the feeling of the same old crap with these men, Randy may not be perfect but at least I know what I'm getting with him I thought, and he can fix things and this means a great deal to me too and our sex life is always perfect that really are the two thing I need a man for LOL. Mary probably is right, in the end he and I will end up together....

Thinking on this though got me annoyed all over again from a practical perspective. Here I am about to buy another house, and one too small for us to live in together at that, while he has three adults living with him, two of which only work part time, one of which should have graduated high school by now but won't go to school, and an assortment of free-loading friends all while HE works TWO jobs to support everyone and thinks cuz she pays him a bit of rent he's got a good deal. The cost of repairing all the damage to his home will probably weigh that rent money out but ya can't tell him anything....then I think if they were gone I could move in there and we could use my down payment and buy our dream cabin in Vermont! I told him this on the phone and he agreed, yes that's whats supposed to happen people are supposed to buy homes together he said. Yup not efficient at all this situation and because both of us were stubborn and prideful and kept reacting out of hurt and past patterns instead of working and changing and growing together. No doubt we have free will but every choice every delay COSTS something and I am so ready to stop paying and start earning credits for my old age! This all bothered me till finally I texted him and told him I made an offer on the grey house and got turned down. Oh crap he replied, I can go up if I want too I sent back..Good Idea he texts, Gonna be hard to get a roommate in those tiny bedrooms, get a tiny roommate he says. I sent back a few texts of my worries and fear and concern.. all he said was remember summer's a lot of fun around here...I sent some back about how I felt in my heart I belonged down there....and wrapped up with the 28 inch door fear so he said he'd call me at 9 and he did.


When he called he agreed to go drive by the house and see if he got a vibe, he had already been over there but went past the wrong one. The he talked about his up-coming trip to VT for snowmobiling and said that no one was going with him.  He admitted that they don't go with him and he also admitted she only went once ever. See I told him you gave up ME and the great sex life for a woman who would ride with you and you ended up with NO sex and she rode once! Your'e cute when you yell at me he says, I am not yelling I said I am nagging, you're cute when you nag me he said. He also said I never wanted you to leave YOU thought I wanted you to leave and I tossed back the you always complained thing but then said never mind. I also told him of my bad dreams and asked him if he'd come watch over me in the night and said your my soulmate you should watch over me I watch over you and he said someone sure does so he said ok. You need to get out of that house he said, I know I know I said I am just scared to pick a new one. He said don't sweat it I can sell it or rent it out later. Then he started on the I will be able to come see you for fun all the time when you move down here and I said oh no and started wondering do men ever listen? He had to go then as he was home but promised to call the next night.... I went to bed kinda pleased as I realized he had been honest with me about "the family" maybe he can learn to be truthful with me maybe there's hope... I woke up the next day and had no nightmares about money.....


On Thursday Mike called and we talked about houses and he sent me just two possibilities in my price range. The others in other towns were in flood zones or they were short sales and I don't have time to buy a short sale..these two were in the same neighborhood as Randy! One not too close but it has a tenant and is ugly, the other one the one that looks nice is so close to his house that he will most likely drive past in on his way to work everyday! I do not want to be that close, what if she comes over and shoots me? The one good thing, the greater good thing though is if I take that one no way can he come over and see me, everyone would see his truck and since they are around 24/7 like he said his house is never empty and they stay up all night too , him visiting me there would be impossible. But I must buy what I can afford and just to lead me down that path the price got lowered a great deal! So I am going to go see it tomorrow, and the other one with a tenant but it costs more and looks ugly. Mary commented on how the angels just keep finding me houses closer and closer to his.... I do know I gave my free will to god long ago and gave permission to pull the strings of my life in the best possible way for the best possible outcomes. I know I would have given in and let him come to me and stay with her, at least sometimes back and forth, this move would keep me from hurting myself by allowing that, protect me till I am stronger. And every day he drives past my house and sees my car will remind him of what he can have IF he wants to make the changes necessary in his life. Well will just have to see what happens. I sent him a link for a beautiful huge vermont cabin, that borders a river and its a steal of a price, he never said anything about it and I realized he really does want to live in the town with out the cell phone signal because that's where his snowmobile riding buddy lives.....ugh. I want Vermont but the vermont thats not too dang remote! He didn't call last night like he said would.......I was ok.


Today I posted an ad on Craigslist and sorted out one halfway descent guy from the bunch and made a date to meet him on sunday. I still must go on with my life as I know it for now. I must soar as high as I can those who are meant to go with me will catch up. Tomorrow I am driving to Keyport and looking at these other two houses. I also researched and found out that the 28inch doors are a code violation. Randy had promised to come over and make the door wider for me if I got the grey house cuz he said my couch wont fit through it (remember he had brought that one home this past summer when I got the deal on CL) but this means the owner will have to fix it or he won't get a C of O. If I get the house near him he wont be able to come over and help me or even move...ugh...well I have other friends. Also today my boss was supposed to come for my one on one, I hoped to hear of a promotion or something too, but it snowed and this got postponed till monday now. I am amazed at myself that I am keeping so calm and paitent with all these balls up in the air....Oh and another reason why the house near Randy would be good is it backs up to the tributary, I know spirit wants me there to help heal the waters, I can sit there and send energy to the place that feeds into it for starters, toss my reiki charged spirit stones right from my back yard.....


So what about you how's things shaping up in your world? Are you looking for a good fit for yourself? The place where you belong? Making the good choices for yourself? Just keep your mind on what you do want for yourself, keep expecting quality, don't let anyone trick your or cheat you or talk you into less than what you really want......you only end up with as good as what you go for in life.......choose well my friends, choose well........I dare you to move too!



With Love and in the Light, Cassie

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOTcr9wKC-o

Tom Petty - Learning To Fly

1-4-11 Resolutions

1-4-11  Resolutions

So how many of you out there made yourself some New Years Resolutions? How many of you are like some of my friends who don't believe in making them because they say they will just break them? Well I myself made some, and I may or may not keep them but if they are one's that are important to me I will just keep re-making, right? Isn't that the best way to do it?

 

So New Years Eve, despite the fact that I prefer to stay home and avoid the high prices, the dangerous roads and the same old lang syne... I drive 40 minutes to go to a party because my gal pal who is going through some really hard times in her relationship (course she's been going through hard times for years in this relationship) begged me to do something with her. So since this event was halfway between us, and hosted by a good organizer buddy of mine I decided that I would go and I promoted it on CC, which drew in a few of "my people".  Then last minute a guy I know called me up and invited me to a party at his house and was bummed I had plans.. well long story short my gal pal never came and claimed she fell asleep but I really feel like she blew me off for having boyfriend stuff come up as that is the norm with her...needless to say she's not making it into my new year.... Resolution #1 Have only quality friendships.

 

Saturday the kids were here, I had let Jeremy have a friend over to celebrate New Years with him and my house was in disarray and a lot of food had been eaten. I went up to have a talk with them when they woke up and saw two bags of suspect material, when I asked if was what I thought it was they said it was not, so I took it and said kewl then I can have it.....the look of panic....So I sat down and laid it on the line to my son and his friend. I said it's your lying that disappoints me the most because you know lying is simply nothing more than being a cowardly little boy who gets his hand caught in the cookie jar. It's time to Man Up and be truthful with me all the time, cuz I am cursed, the truth always finds me even when I'd rather now know, so at least quit being such cowards and have some integrity and tell the truth. And the house is a mess clean it! They were good the rest of the day and later that night I went to see "True Grit" with Mary...a good lesson there in that movie, back in those days people lived hard, times were tough and the people tougher but one thing I saw in the movie and that was a man's word was his word, even if his last words to you were ya stole my horse and now I am going to shoot ya! LOL But still truth and integrity those are valuable. Resolution # 2 Expect (and give) only truth and integrity from the people in my life.

 

Sunday I had made appointments with my realtor who sold my home up here, she's been anxious about me not having a new place and ready to get out of this one as they won't close till I am getting out..So she wanted to show me a couple homes in a town next to where I want to live. I called Mike and he was on vacation but got his broker to show me the grey house again, I wanted to take measurements and such before I made an offer, and so I went down. She and I talked and sorted out the whole thing and decided on a price much lower than they are asking but hey they lied to me they messed with me its going to cost them, we will see what happens... I was happy to get out of there just in time to make noon mass in the church down there and sat there saying see God I am starting the New Year off right...he said "good now make a habit of it"! Resolution #3 Stay active in church and spiritual communities

 

Then I headed to the mall for my newly formed Walking & Talking group. This is Resolution #4 Be more physically active I think that's enough to get started on for now, as the week unfolded into Monday and today my resolution #1 was challenged quite a bit, people who come into my circle don't go away any too easily, I really don't know why either. One guy I was talking to today was saying you know Cassie you have a lot of enemies out here, people you have removed from your groups and such you should be worried about that. Nope not worried a bit I told him I am proud of each and every enemy that I have because they are people who lacked integrity, people who mistreated others, or people who weren't charitable even to themselves, people who used others, slandered others, brought clouds of negativity to the groups. No I am proud of every enemy because it shows what I will and will not stand for. I don't compromise in order to have friends.

 

Now this is not to say I do not LOVE these people, I love each and every one because we are all related, we are all children of god and its my enemies that I pray for the most. If any of them ever comes to me and asks for Reiki or a sympathetic ear I am there for them, I forgive I forget I give second third and 70 times 7 chances...if they want to evolve into the loving beings they were created to be, if not they can stay away and not muddy up my aura! I pray that you all have the same courage in your relationships this year...

 

Today take a look at what resolutions you wish to make for yourself, where is there room for improvement? Can you set a few goals for yourself to become an even better you this year? If you can't think of any just ask God , he will help you.....Cuz I don't know about you but last year I started walking my path but this year I'm learning to fly!!!

 

With Love and in the Light, Cassie

 

 Tom Petty - Learning To Fly

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5BJXwNeKsQ