3-14-11 The Circle of Life

3-14-11  The Circle of Life

We are approching a full moon and the vernal equinox, a new spring is upon us a new cycle of life after our long winters rest...are you ready to bloom and grow?

Thursday night I didn't end up having dinner with Mary as the roads were flooding and she couldn't make it up, much as I love my dinners with Mary this probaly was God's way of answering my prayer I made earlier in the day to please help me to get my blog finished, my newsletter sent and my bills paid after work tonight. LOL Dustin also called me too and we got to talk awhile which doesn't happen often- we talked for a good while too till we hit the area where we disagree on religion. It was going along so well, we found many ways where we do agree, he seemed interested in my newest business for the people idea that I have too. All was well till we got to the part where I said just please don't preach to Jeremy what a sinner he is, he needs to know God's love in order to come to him, and he is perfect child of god who's just made some wrong choices, he is not a sinner no one is a sinner. Well that ruffled his feathers and he left me with a question to ponder: If there are no sinners then why did Jesus come and die for our sins? Ahh but there he went back to thinking that I think the bible we read today is still the word of God that he sent for us.....my faith is that Jesus lived and died for US, to show us how it works, not to pay a price for our karmic depts, that is our OWN dept to pay not anyone elses...after all if it worked that way we could frolic and sin and God could keep sending down people to die for us over and over and much like spoiled children we would never learn anything now would we? At least that's my thinking on the subject... He also bashed my Reiki ties on his facebook page, he thinks its some sort of mumbo jumbo that goes against God...for that one I yelled at him and told him to not bash what he knows nothing about. I told him that it was after I took Jeremy for his first treatment on the full moon at Christmas time that he started his path of healing and change and its true! Oh when will we learn to not bash what we do not understand?

Friday night I had an event that was dissapointing, I had planned something special in Princeton, drove all the way down 206 in horrendous rush hour traffic, ate dinner alone and then sat in the cold waiting for the 12 people who said they were coming.......one came. Yup one, and I would think it was me if not for the fact that the other organizers have the same problems, people RSVP yes then change their minds and don't bother to tell us. And then they say oh well make the pre-pay then they will come, but no that doesnt work either because they all sit around waiting to see who will sign up before they decide to sign up like they are in Jr high! Are you feeling my frustration here? Don't get me wrong I have been so blessed to be such a good networker and to bring so many people together, and I stil want to do it some but seriously peoples behavior seems to be get increasingly self centered. But......for saturday night I teamed up with another organizer and posted her event on my groups, we did dinner and Karaoke and I must say we had a blast! I think at least half the people who came did so from my groups, and they joined hers too so we shared and there was one moment that really touched my heart that night. I don't know how many of you have been reading my blog since the start but if you recall, about this time last year I sold my first set of SpiritStones, on MardiGras weekend, at a Karaoke event! It had been a day of firsts for me, the first time I tried Improv , the first time I sang Karaoke and the fist set of stones that I sold. Well anyway the woman who bought that first set from me was there, and I must say this has been a year of transformation for her as well. She pulls out her lavender satin pouch and says Cassie I am down to my very last stone, I gave them all out and I want you to have the last one and keep it very safe and never loose it. I took it from her and saw that it was the clear crystal one, the most powerful one of all. So what I had given out came full circle back to me....I may have lost my business partner and all the stones, bags and scrolls I paid for to start the business but the spirit I created when I set off on this path has remined true. I took the stone greatfully knowing that it would form a bond between us forever and I said oh wait you forgot to put your intention for me into the stone and she said oh no no I didn't forget.....I asked for something very very special for you....she didn't tell me what but I believe it is something very special...

Sunday I was feeling a little under the weather, and it was the "spring forward" weekend so I had lost an hour of sleep. I talked to a few friends and I spent a lot of the day reflecting on the past year and how much I have grown and how much I have yet to do and a bit about what I want to do next. The news stories of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan was all over the message boards, and I even saw one of the possiblity that Atlantis had been found! I reflected on the conversation I had with Mary the day before on how upset I am with myself that I keep thinking about Randy so much this week, she told me that she thinks he's trying to contact me energetically, that he misses me and it really would serve me to get past my anger over him chosing to be with her. She encouraged me to message him so I decided to on this day and I texted: Do you know any body who is a handy man and can do some work for me cheap for cash? (he had offered to help me but I figued now I won't have sex with him anymore he won't help me) He texted back: No...........I was going to let it go but my voice egged me on so I asked: If I pay you will you help me? I braced myself for the rejection........his reply came: Sure. I felt relieved and happy to see that we probably can salvage a friendship out of all this. I love him and I can't make that go away no matter how much anger and indignation I try and bury it under, and while he has chosen to live his life with her and her kids I know he loves ME. We have come full circle, back to where we started off as friends when he first messaged me last spring, all he said he wanted was a friend with benifits it was I who tried to make it more than he wanted, I am glad that I came to accept him this way......some people come into your life and stay awile but then there are some people who stay not one but through other lives as well.....I belive he and I share such a bond. I can't give my body to him anymore while he has another "wife", I can't hurt myself that way anymore, but forever I know our souls are meshed. So no matter who ends up coming along and marrying me one of these days I can honor the friendship Randy and I have and not feel sad that he doesn't want me to be his wife.

I also talked to my buddy a bit on sunday, he confessed to me that he broke up with his girlfriend and he felt really bad about it for hurting her but he just wasnt feeling it. I saw this coming and frankly wondered what took him so long to do this. Sometimes I wonder why he and I maintain our friendship because it is a very passionate one, we fight often but we always make up again,  it even began the day of a huge altercation, actually the day that i first "invented" the concept of my SpiritStones, he was the inspiration for them! I marveled how far he had come these two years since then and how our friendship had so many rocky times but we survived. He truly has a desire to help others to grow and evolve and also with a weight loss plan he has been succesful at. He was up to 300lbs at one time and now he wants to guide me through his plan so I can lose my weight. I think I can help him help others too. He's also going to be getting a boat and is very happy that the new home I bid on is 3 blocks from a boat dock...we happily made plans of weekend long boating parties, biking trips and BBQs at my place this summer....

This weekend we get another full moon and not only that but it's going to be VERY close to the earth, some scientists are predicting all kinds of natural disasters. I think we have already have been having plenty of those already this year! I just wonder if anyone's going to pay attention? It's time to come full circle people, you've had time to walk your paths and learn your lessons and make your mistakes and come into your own growth in your own time but now the universe is shaking herself like a wet dog, shivering from what we have done to her, preparing for a new cycle that is to come.......we must raise ourselves up to go with it or we will be washed away...... In an intentions workshop with my shaman a few years ago I got a message that I would be 50 and planning my wedding.......well my 50th year is halfway gone, and I have no idea who it's going to be but I know that I am going to marry someone.......my king is coming soon I must be ready....

Today I want you to reflect on the circle of your past year and see if it took you to the point that you wanted to be? Of if you just ended up back where you started a little older, a little more weary but none the wiser and still the same? Reflect on that a bit this week and prepare yourself for the full moon this weekend and its extra added punch of energy, think about what you want to release that did not serve you and what you want to bring to your life in its place.......me as I complete my cirlce I just want to love. love. love love LOVE!.......and see what this next cycle of the year will bring me.....


With Love and in the Light, Cassie

Lion King - Circle of Life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vX07j9SDFcc

It's the Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life

"Once the torch that we carry to illuminate the way to our destiny is lit, we must surround ourselves not by people who will judge us negatively and smother our flame, but by people who will walk beside us and help us carry our torch when our arms become tired... " ~Debi Hebel